THE 30th ϟ sanzu h.

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A/N: i suggest you to listen to „the 30th" by billie eilish while reading this chapter.

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30th of July, 2018

He hasn't left her side after the accident.
She was laying in the hospital bed, unconscious for 5 days now.

He still wonders how that happened.

Lost in his thoughts he didn't notice her body slightly moving.

„Sanzu?"

Her voice sounded so quiet.
So lifeless.
So sad.

„I'm here, baby. Don't worry"
He just wanted to be here for her.

He didn't know when exactly it happened, but he fell in love with her.

„What happened, love?"
He asked her.

„I don't remember it, i just remember waking up in the ambulance for a second and then falling unconscious."

It was hard to believe for him.

He felt his tears coming out once again. That was the 30th time he cried in the past few days.
He counted it.

„You look so pretty"
He told her.

„I was scared."
She said, making a sad expression.

„So was I"

She looked at him and confessed.
„I tried to kill myself."

His eyes widened and his mouth was agape.
She always seemed happy and perfect to him. How could she do that to herself?

„W-Why?!"
He broke down.

„My dad found out I was sleeping somewhere else..." she took a quick break. „He took my phone and t-then kicked me out."

He was shook.

„I'm glad you are still alive. It's gonna be okay now. I'll be there for you."
He smiled sadly.

„I love you"
She confessed.

„I love you too"

She smiled.

„So did I pass? Am I your girlfriend now?"
She asked.

He nodded.

But he couldn't stop thinking.

What if it happened to you on a different day?

On a bridge, where there wasn't a rail in the way?

Or a neighborhood street where the little kids play?

Or the Angeles Crest in the snow or the rain?

What if you weren't alone? There were kids in the car

What if you were remote? No one knows where you are

If you changed anything, would you not have survived?

You're alive, you're alive, you're alive