ACCIDENTAL LOVE (Jinkook ff) (ON HOLD)

16. Her

Author's pov

"You were here? Oh God... I was searching for you in the entire house.. Why are you here staying in this cold weather? You are gonna catch cold." Jin's Appa said as he moved near to Jin who was sitting in the garden area of their home.

Jin is feeling cold which is evident from how he holds onto his knees tightly towards his chest portion and resting his head over it. But his stubborn mind is not ready to go inside. Everything is a mess for him. Even the calm night couldn't calm the sea inside his mind.

Jin's Appa sighed and patted slowly on his son's back to get some response. But No. Neither he says anything nor he raise his head from that position.

"Jinnie... Come and have something.. You didn't had anything for dinner. Because of that, no one else didn't had much of the dinner either. Its okay.. Don't overthink about what Jungkook said. He is also feeling sorry seeing you hurt. I am sure he didn't mean anything by that. He was just messing with you like always.. So baby... Come... Lets go insi-

"Am i like her Appa?" It was a small mumble with a hoarse voice which was enough for his Appa to understand that he was crying all these time staying here alone.

"Jin" Hearing his Appa's concerned voice this time, Jin slowly raise his head from his knees and looked at his dad with tearfilled eyes. His eyes are red and puffy.

His Appa stroked his hair slowly and leaned back to the bench and sighed looking at the empty sky.

"Hmm... You are like her." He said and closed his eyes. Jin's eyes was completely focused on his Appa. He was wishing his Appa would say... 'no he is not like his eomma.. He can't be like her...'. That was he truly wnated to hear now. But his Appa's reply make him more hurting.

" I was a little surprised hearing this question from you.... You never asked for her in your entire life..." He said looking at Jin now as he softly caressed his cheeks and wiped the tears from it.

" Your eyes, cute little nose, lips, face..... Everything resembles her.... But not your heart........ As you grow up, its felt like a punishment.... That the same face i wish to forget for the past 20 years..... is coming back to me in your form....... But........ You know right.... It is the same face i wish to see every day of my life..... The reason for my life... My survival... My happiness.... My Everything....... " Jin nodded biting his lips to control his tears. But his own eyes betrayed him.

" I don't.... w-want to be l-like her.... I am... not like her.... I am like.. you.... I hate her.... for making you suffer.... For leaving us.... I hate her.... " Jin said between his sobs. His Appa pulled him towards his chest and hugged him tightly.

" Hmm... She has her own reasons... " Appa said to console him.

" Don't justify her. I don't like it.... She is not in our life... She is dead for me.... " Now it was with a tone of anger as he saw how his Appa still don't like anyone badmouth her.

" Jinnie.... She is your mother..."

"No... I don't have a mother.... I only have you.... That's all i need. I don't want her.... I don't need her in my life" Anger arising in him just by the mention of that word. Mother. That is the one whom he hate most in the life.

"Fine..... Don't get angry for tbis again.... You are my boy... My son... My pride.... That's all we need... You have me... I have you.... Till my last breath...." His appa said and patted on his back.

" I am not rude" Jin said in a small voice. His Appa chuckled with tears in his eyes.

"You are not rude." His Appa assured.