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~CHAPTER SEVENTEEN~

The very sight of that blanketing darkness. Those little twinkle stars were bright. It was in midnight.

A certain bunny male was still wake, staring at the ceiling as he tried to decompress from his past. His mind never slow down of remembering his hurtful past.

He tried closing his eyes but the thought of her didn't stopped and slowly opened his eyes, allowing himself to adjust to the light once again.

A soft knock end his thought before going and opening the door to meet his husband.

"Hi" taehyung said to him with a kind smile.

Jungkook watched as his husband examined his demeanor, those green eyes gaze soon became an empathetic one as he realized the pain that rested in jungkook's stare.

The bunny let the other one enter freely. "Hello" taehyung hear a shaky breath come from jungkook and worry immediately courses through him.

Jungkook spoke with such lowness, a brokenness that taehyung wasn't expecting from him. He continues in the same demeanor. "Come let sit" and closed his door.

Taehyung asked, his soft voice filled with concern. "Is everything alright?"

Jungkook inhales. He tried to collected himself before letting out his next breath. He was going to try play to off the lowness of his current emotional state but realized there was no point. His pretty husband definitely knew that he was not fine.

So he took a final deep breath to allow a firm enough to respond to taehyung to not seem completely distraught, told him plainly. "Can we talk"

"Ofcourse" taehyung replied with kind smile.

They both sit, taehyung on the couch and jungkook on a chair not to far from it. They sit in silence for a bit as jungkook tries to gather his words. He can feel his husband's stare as his eyes are set on his barefoot and yet he doesn't feel pressure to speak.

He knows that taehyung will be there to listen whenever he's ready. So he took his time, took a breath and dives off into deep end.

"I have struggled a lot in the last four years of my life" jungkook begin, setting his elbows on his knees and lean in taehyung's direction.

"My first serious long term relationship ended with her cheat on me. I was eighteen and she the same age of me when we met, and we dated for one month. We took it very slowly and gradually fell in love over a few months"

"I have always had in my past self confidence issues in relationships but was so grateful to be in a relationship with someone who seemed to genuinely like me"

"Looking back, she was blind obsessed with her appearance, and on nights out loved to get men attention and teased them" jungkook forced his lips together as he tried to retain the tears wanted to leave his eyes.

"She pleaded me to join a group of popular students which I absolutely was against the idea as I didn't like the idea of 'popular group' but seeing her happy that she befriended so many people, I just gave in"

"No ones to befriend me since I was like the nerd type and always with her. So boys get jealous why a person like her is always  with me, on the other hand the girls thought that they don't even stand a chance against her... so they never try to know what type of person am I and is where as she was too popular so they thought that they will probably get rejected and it's true, so they never try"

"I did everything she told me to do. Buying her dreams things but still that didn't satisfied her ego"

"One night out, she introduced me to a male friend in a club which soon joined the group, and I later saw them kissing" his voice cracked as he started to spoke again.