B.E. Imagines

Curious

Billie's POV
Currently locked myself in the bathroom at the hotel. I reeked of urine and my makeup was ruined. I thought I could hold it til we got here but I ended up having an accident on the bus. My best friend Y/N happened to see it. Everyone on the bus did. The bus driver went over a speed bump and well it happened. I couldn't stop it. She didn't say anything, she must think I'm a freak. As soon as we got to the hotel's back entrance, I tied a jacket on my waist and ran. I heard Y/N calling for me but I couldn't bare to look at her. I was too embarrassed. I hear a knock on the door. "Billie please open the door, I just wanna know if you're okay." Y/N says. I was too nervous to say anything. I look at my hands nervously not knowing what to say or do. "Well you come out when you're ready, I'm here for you." Y/N seemed understanding but it still worried me what she thought. My family well this isn't the first time this happened, I guess they're used to it, still embarrassing. I look down at my tan pants, I felt gross, cold and wet. I got up from the floor and looked in the mirror. My eyeliner was ruined black streaks down my face. I go and wash my face. I hear y/n talking. "Yeah I don't know I'm worried about Bils." "Well she's been in the bathroom for almost an hour now." "She just won't come out I don't know what to do!!" "Thanks for listening, I'm just worried...thanks I'll talk to you later." I still didn't want Y/N to see me like this even if it seemed she'd be understanding. Another knock on the door. "Billie please open the door, I'm worried." She tries opening the door. "Y-Y/N I'm okay." I say. "Are you sure?? I was talking to Maggie on the phone and she's worried too." "I-I'm scared." I say. "Bils, there's nothing to be afraid of. You're still my best friend." I can't help to smile. I slowly unlock the door, the door knob turns and Y/N slowly walks in. I try covering the wet spot with my hands but it's no use. "Aww Bils, come here." She opens her arms and embraces me into a hug. I can't help to get emotional. "Why are you crying?" I shrug and hide my face into her chest. She kisses me on top of my head while still hugging me. "Shhh it's okay honey." I loved when Y/N called me sweet pet names. She lets go of the hug and caressed my cheek. "You're too cute." I blush. "Thanks for not um judging me." I say. "Bils, I would never, I was just worried for you is all. Your mom said this happens a lot lately?" I felt my cheeks go red. "Uhh I don't know." "Are you stressing about something?" "I don't think so." "Well I'll step out so you can shower and change your clothes." Y/N is about to walk out when I grab her arm. "Wait!" She turns around looking at me. "What?" "Um so the reason sometimes I've been having accidents... sometimes I like to hold it." I couldn't look at Y/N. "Why?" "Cause it feels...good." I say softly. "What did you say?" I was too embarrassed. She grabs my face to look at me. "What did you say?" "I-um that it feels... good." Y/N smirks. "So does this turn you on?" I bite my lip nervously. "Does it excite you to have an accident in public?" "Uhh n-no I just try to hold it until I can't take it anymore." "Seems like you're having trouble with that. Does anyone know?" I shake my head "well I guess you know now.." Y/N chuckles. I can't tell if she's mocking me or curious about it. "I know sorry it's weird." I say. "Hey Bils, it's okay, I wasn't expecting this and it's not really my thing but I support you." I was relieved. "Bils, you've been my best friend for years, nothing would ever change." I hug her tight. "Thank you." I whisper into her ear. "Of course. Can I ask you a question though?" "Sure." I pull away. "So have you tried wearing diapers?" My eyes went wide. "I just thought about it since you hold it a lot and if you don't want accidents, you could wear them?" "I um no I haven't... I actually like the feeling of it going down my legs." I feel my cheeks go red. "Oh.." Y/N looks at me trying to figure me out. I felt like she was judging me. "Just say it you think I'm weird." "N-no Billie you're not weird, I'm just curious is all and I'm trying to understand it. Why does it turn you on?" "It just does, I don't know how to explain it." "Is it a humiliation thing?" "I d-don't know." "Okay well I'm gonna step out and let you clean up. Y/N walks out closes the door behind her. I sigh in relief. I'm glad Y/N wasn't judgemental about it but I was still embarrassed. I took off my dirty clothes and hopped in the shower.

It was the next day. Y/N and I shared a room. I would usually hold it in the mornings but I didn't want to do that with her around and knowing. But now I've been holding for a couple of hours after lunch. I know I shouldn't do this with Y/N around but I needed to feel something. Y/N was playing a game on her switch. And I was watching tv. I got up to get some snacks. I end up feeling pressure and begin to cross my legs and move side to side. "Billie you okay over there?" I hear Y/N shout out. "Yeah I'm fine." I walk back to her with a cup of water and chips. "So are you holding right now?" "Um n-no." "Don't lie, I saw you crossing your legs." "Okay yeah I am." "Does it feel good?" "Why are you asking me these questions?" "Sorry, I'm just curious is all. I promise I'm not judging you." "Sorry I raised my voice. It's just that I planned to keep this a secret from everyone, I didn't expect anyone to understand." "Aw Bils, I'm sorry you feel that way but I'm sure you'll find a guy that would accept you." "..or a girl." "What?" Y/N looked at me wide eyed. "Yes Y/N I'm into women too." "Finally!!" "What?!" "You would always deny it before but I had a feeling you were, it's the gaydar, yup." "I thought I just found them pretty but I realized straight girls don't fantasize about kissing and sex with others. "What do you fantasize about?" Y/N now moving in closer. I gulp. "Uhh I don't know.." "Do you want to piss yourself in front of another woman?" "I- Um.." I was nervous what Y/N would do or say next. We're best friends but there's always been something different with her than my other friends. "Does it excite you to hold it near me?" Moving closer and speaking with a low tone. I couldn't speak. "Hmm you're so cute when your flustered." Y/N says now closer to my face. "Tell me to stop if you don't want it." Her breath now on my face. I lean towards her closing the gap. I felt butterflies when our lips touched. She pulls away. "Im sorry I don't know what came over me - Y/N says. I end up leaning forward and on top of her kissing. She runs her fingers through my hair and moans during the kiss. We pull away for some air. "You're eyes are beautiful Bils." She looks at me while caressing my cheek. "Thanks." I can't help to blush. She ends up pushing me down on the sofa her on top of me. Kissing my neck and sucking and nipping at my collarbones. Her hands snake down to my stomach where she lightly presses it. I cross my legs. "No crossing." I sigh. "Let's get these off of you." She helps me stand up and pulls down my shorts. She smirks at me. "No underwear huh? Were you planning on something?" I start to feel self conscious and cover myself. "Hey no you're beautiful baby. I love your body." I blush and slowly take my hand away. "Perfect." "I never wear underwear on my days off, I wasn't planning on anything." "Okay sure.." "it's true y/n!!" "Shh you talk too much." She crawls on top of me. Kissing my stomach going down. I try to hold in my moans. "Baby, let it out, I wanna hear you." I look down making eye contact with Y/N, I bite my lip. "You're so sexy." She says. She opens my legs up. "Fuck you're so wet from holding." I feel pleasure all of a sudden she licked a strip and flicked her tongue against my clit. "Ughhhh!" I quickly put my hands between my legs feeling like I was about to leak. "Hey take your hands away. I got you." "I'm gonna piss all over this sofa" "Isn't that what you want?" "Y- I mean no this isn't um...ugh!" I felt her tongue again. I feel a small leak come out. "Damn baby, you're so wet." I feel immense pleasure when she puts a finger in thrusting slowly then picking up the pace. While sucking on the sensitive bud. She tries adding another finger but it was painful that I almost kicked her. "Oh my god I'm sorry I didn't mean to kick you." "No it's okay, are you okay? Did I hurt you?" "N-no it just hurts when I put things in." "I'm sorry baby, I didn't know." "It's okay you didn't know, I haven't told anyone this." "It's okay, do you want to continue?" I nod. "Please let me know if anything else okay?" I nod. I feel her lips around my sensitive bud again. "Fuck that feels good keep going!!" A few minutes later my back arches and I release. I laid there feeling good while I relieved myself. Y/N got up to face me I noticed her face wet. I got embarrassed. "Babe, it's okay, it was hot to be honest." "You're not grossed out?" "No it was good." I get up and realize what a mess I had made. Dark spot all over the couch we were on and a puddle on the floor. How was i supposed to explain this to anyone? "Hey don't worry okay? I'll call cleaning services. I'll just say I spilled something, I'll wipe up the floor before they get here." I sigh in relief "thank you y/n."