B.E. Imagines

Confessions

"Billie?" I ask. "Yes?" My best friend looks over to me. "I need to tell you something kinda important." Her face becomes serious with some worry. "What's wrong?" She grabs my hands. "Um so I kinda have feelings for you, I just wonder if you feel the same way?" My hands shaking, I wanted to cry. I couldn't look at her. "Aw Y/N is that it?" I nod. "I'm sorry if you think it's weird." "No, no of course not! I'm flattered! But I just think we're good as friends at the moment." She smiles caressing my hands. "Oh.. okay." My heart sank. I really thought we had a special connection. I had never felt this with anyone else before. "Y/N I'm really sorry. But thank you for telling me. I love you, you're still my best friend." She pulls me into a hug. I act as if it doesn't bother me. "Thank you for being honest with me." "You're welcome I just wanted to be sure." She smiles.

It was awkward. I didn't know what else to say, I wanted to run and hide to cry. But I couldn't let Billie see me heartbroken. "Hey what's on your mind?" I snap out of my thoughts. "Huh? Oh nothing." "You sure?" "Yeah I'm fine." She nods and goes back on her phone. I do the same. There's weird tension now. "Well I think I better go, it's getting late. I'll see you later okay?" Billie stands up. She had never done this before. But it was understandable this time. "Oh yeah thanks for taking it well.." "of course Y/N, I know one day you will find the person of your dreams." She hugs me tight and leaves.

I cry into my hands. Felt like a loser. Was I that delusional to think she liked me back? Well I got my answer so time to move on, I guess. I get ready for bed and lay down going on my phone. There was a text from Billie. I contemplate to open it, but I do anyway. I read her text. She tells me she needs time to process everything I told her. That we're still friends but she wanted to be alone for awhile. It worried me knowing Billie has depression and I didn't want it to get bad if no one was around. I reply "okay I understand." She sends me a smile with a heart. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I have a heavy feeling in my chest. I haven't been this heartbroken before. Maybe I shouldn't have told her.

A few days have passed and no word from her. I was sad yet worried about her. But I tried to keep myself busy so I wouldn't think about her anymore. Then a week, no word. Should I reach out? Or should I wait for her to do so? I took a deep breath and about to text when I get a text from her. Odd timing but stuff like that always would happen. She says she wants to come over and talk things out. I was nervous but I agreed. We needed to talk this out, I didn't know what was going on if we're still best friends or not.

She arrives at my place shortly after. "Hi." She smiles shyly and waves." "Hi." I smile back. She giggles and lets herself in. "Y/N I'm really sorry I've been distant. It's me, not you." She looks like she's about to cry. "Hey Bils, it's okay I was just worried about you." She pulls me into a big hug, crying into my chest. "Hey shhh shh I'm here Bils, let it out." I rub her back. She looks up at me with teary eyes. "I'm so sorry Y/N. I-I f-feel like the b-big-gest jerk." "Hey no don't say that Bils." I wipe her tears away with my thumb. She blushes. Her smile was so cute, I need to stop thinking of her like that.

We sit on the couch. I hand her some tissues. "Thank you." She smiles. "So I've been thinking about what you told me, and I realized that I actually do like you.." she looks down playing with the hem of her shirt, something she did when nervous. "W-what?" I was in shock. "Yeah I'm sorry it took so long to figure it out. It's just that I've only dated guys before. I always found you pretty and attractive but I figured it was just as friends. The more I thought about losing you, I couldn't risk you finding someone else." She wipes her tears. "Billie thank you for telling me and being open with me." She smiles. "I never been with a girl before so I'm nervous." "You don't need to be nervous around me." I laugh.

She laughs with me. We talk and hang out like old times. She looks at me in my eyes. "What?" She leans in kissing me. I got caught off guard. I was too shocked to say anything. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have- "Hey Bils relax, it's okay, I loved it." "Really??" "Mhmm your lips are soft." I grab her by the chin pulling her closer to me. I feel her breathing on my skin. "Relax babe." She nods. I place my lips on hers softly kissing her. I feel her relax a little. She runs her fingers through my hair. "Mhmm." We continue kissing until we needed air. "You're a good kisser." I say smirking. She blushes and bites her lip. "Thank you Y/N really, I was afraid you'd be mad at me." "No I was a little sad but more worried about you. Have you been taking care of yourself?" She nods. I didn't really believe that but I didn't wanna push it. "Well actually no.." she says quietly looking down. "Hey it's okay, thank you for telling me. Are you hungry babe?" She looks up at me shocked. "What?" "You called me babe." "Oh I'm sorry I didn't realize that." She giggles "it's fine, I like it."