I'm a girl that loves the fall, but struggles the most in November. My favorite holiday is thanksgiving, but I find it hard to think about what I'm thankful for. I love to cook, but never eat turkey. But funny enough this year I'll be doing it. I've had so many hard years. And somehow they just keep feeling more difficult. I keep falling into this infinite pile of leaves, feeling abandoned. I can't take this stress alone. But I can't have people keep leaving me. I stay silent most of the time. Because if I told him how I felt he'd unravel. If I told you how I felt I'm scared of what could happen, but I do open up to you the most. If I told them how I felt they wouldn't listen. And most importantly I do tell her how I feel, but nothing changes about my situation. She's trying as much as she can, and for that I am thankful.
