Philia | h.s

fourteen

Harry

November 14th

Today has been exhausting. I haven't stopped all day and I just need a break. Something that I can't do, unfortunately. Being the CEO of a brand is more difficult than I thought it would be, but I couldn't let the company into the hands of somebody else.

Technically, I could have but if my dad did everything in his power to separate Mabel and me, it is only fair for me to create a brand about and for her.

I like to see it as my revenge against him. Everything works extremely well, people love what we come up with. We may extend the brand to something even greater and cherry on top: Mabel is now working here and one day, it will be hers.

I have so many things left to do and all I want is to go home and hear my little boy telling me about his day. I should have left 2 hours ago but here I am.

"What are you still doing here" I stop what I'm doing and lift my head to the voice that just spoke to me and see Niall leaning against the door, arms crossed.

"Just working on some paper" I sigh and show him the pile of paperwork piling up on my desk. He walks in front of me and sits down on one of the chairs.

"It's late H, you should go back to Mio," he says, crossing his legs

I sigh, rubbing my eyebrows "I know Ni, I know. His nanny is with him until I go home" I hate leaving him for a long period of time but there are days when I have to. I prefer him being at home with her than him being here and getting bored.

"Perhaps but he's not with his father" 

I arrange the papers in a pile and put them in each corresponding binder. Then I put everything I need in my bag and check my phone one last time, "I also know that Niall" I raise my voice, "All I want to do is to be with him but I can't."

"What is really going on H?" he says calmly which makes me immediately guilty for speaking to him the way I did

"I'm sorry for raising my voice" I mumble

"It's okay" he pauses before speaking again, "Is everything good with Mabel?"

I'm quick to nod, "Yeah, yeah everything is great. Maybe a little too great"

"What do you mean?" he asks confused

I slump on the chair and avoid his gaze, "I still don't understand why she agreed to take me back into her life after all I did. I was preparing myself for a lifetime of pain and heartbreak not having her back"

"You should talk to her about that Harry. You fucked up but you apologised to her. She has her reasons" he tells me, rearranging the pile I made.

"I just feel like I'm taking advantage of her kindness"

"I don't know what to say, mate. You need to tell her, she's the only one who can help you"

I hum and get up. I gather all my things and leave the office. I don't bother waiting for Niall as I know he follows me. We are both silent during the elevator ride, not a comfortable one though. So much needs to be said and yet nothing goes out of our mouths. I know he is right, to an extent he is but things finally are good with Mabel and I can't be the one ruining everything. Not again. Not ever.

The drive to my house is pretty quick. I must not have respected the speed limits very much, too eager to be with my son and to sleep.

As soon as I arrive, the door opens and I see Mio waiting for me on the porch. I turn off the car, grab my things and walk to him. I immediately pick him up and hold him on my hip. I kiss his cheek and he giggles at the action.