Your boyfriend game | Bakery AU

Ch.4 Lucid dreams

Sobbing was killing me..I was hugging the roses tightly, tears were falling dramaticaly off my face. I was sleepy, but I just couldn't sleep, this pain, awful pain was kicking right on my heart..
I tried calming down, fortunately I did. My eyes were heavy, because of all that crying..
My eyes were lowering slowly, but I noticed something in the window, a figure was facing me, hiding itself slightly.
I ignored it and turned to the other side. closing my eyes to sleep.

I was lost somewhere, black as a void. Someone showed up. A woman was facing her back at me. she was wearing a long dark reddish skirt, had white shirt and light blue jeans jacket. Her hair was a little longer than mine. She looked awfully familiar.
I tried moving towards her.
I finally reached her as I was going to hold her shoulder but all of a sudden I started falling down. I blinked and I was in the sky, falling in a sea. I started screaming, but screaming wouldn't help me from falling.

I fell into the sea, drowning, until I fell on a chair. I was in a room. In front of me was a long table. there were people sitting around it.. My Mom, Brother, Dad..
They started staring at me as my mother spoke up.
"You disgrace of a child, I made a big mistake on you."-she said with a strickt voice.
"Wait, what did I do?"-I asked with a terrified look.
"You never do things right..you egoist, you only think about yourself"
She came up to me and touched my fingers. I looked down and my hands were tied on the chair.
"Everything would be fine if you weren't born..I wouldn't be wasting my time on you.. I would be living a goddamn life I always wished for. But you ruined it."-she said in a cold voice and started breaking my fingers one by one. I screamed in pain, if this is a dream, why can I feel it? I was screaming in unbelivable pain.
As she was done she took a knife.
"If you didn't run away from TOBEY, your sister would be fine."
She hit my finger with a knife, chopping it off.
I closed my eyes and let out a deafening scream, I almost lost my voice from screaming.
When I opened my eyes, I was tied on a bed, tied as TOBEY came up to me. crawled on the bed and said:
"You shouldn't have ran away dear.."
His face gives me chills, he scares me the most in my life, he is my fear, the dark part of mine that never leaves my head and memories alone.
"I'm not coming back!"-I shouted at him, struggling to get up.
"You don't need to worry about that..You are already mine..All Mine.."
I struggled as he was crawling closer and closer.
I struggled and struggled and..

"AAAHHH"-I screamed as I woke up.
It was middle of the night.
I was panting very hard, looking at my hand, the finger was still missing, and your bandages were itching.

"Oh..come on... I don't want to sleep again.. That was one of the worst nightmares I have ever had.."-I was frowning and groaning.

I took off my bandages, revealing scars all around my arms.
"Great, now I have to change bandages."
I went to my closet and tried opening it. It was freaking stuck.
"Just great, JUST GREAT!"
I looked up at the closet and the bandages were there. ugh....
I couldn't reach it, I took the chair next to me, I took the bandages. The chair was slippery so I yeeted on the floor, hitting my head on the bed.
"OW!"-I yelled, rubbing my hand on the back of my head.
I sat on the bed started bandaging slowly and carefully, so nothing would be visible.
All of a sudden I heard something in my closet."huh..?"
Silence covered the room. I decided to ignore it. I put the bandage on the table, I didn't want to slip again.

I looked at the clock, it was literaly 5:00 AM. I had to sleep again unfortunately. But I got no choice?
I went to sit in the middle of bed. I remembered something. I crawled to my nightstand, opened the first drawer and took out a necklace. it was kind of wide, but still small. It had blue crystal, it was shining. This was my sister's necklace.
I layed back on my bed.
"Hi sis, I know you can hear me even if you're dead..But I still want to vent you know.. Life is real hard..I skipped school and became selftought, I read thousands of books. I am not going back to college and university, I'm skipping it, cuz I don't want everything stupid to rehappen again. I hope you are doing fine.. Well, I guess I have to sleep.. so, Goodnight c:"
I put the necklace back and closed my eyes, as I tought of disappearing from this world, but, some urge was resisting me to not. It was Peter, I fell inlove with him as soon as I saw him, he made me feel loved, I want to see him again, Right now too. If not him, I would be dead now, I think, I'm not walking on Hawkstreet again.

I was deep in toughts, I slowly fell asleep, feeling relieved for some reason.

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