Dying But Living

Chapter 4

Katsuki’s POV:

    The one month soon turned into a year. I was broken without him, and was scared of what was happening to him.  I wanted him back, and missed him. I wasn’t like myself without him. I was more… distant. I didn’t care what anyone did, and as long as they helped with the search, I was fine with them. When I was in a bad mood, I was more moody and angry with people. I was never happy, and never smiled anymore. Most of the agency didn’t smile either, and everyone seemed gray. There was no color in anyone anymore, although we still kept up with the search. The only agency that was still helping was Deku’s agency. Everyone else had given up on his case, along with the police and media. They told everyone that he was probably dead, but I couldn’t believe that unless I saw it, which I didn’t want to.

    It was a normal, sad day without my husband. I was going through papers when Mina burst through the door. I looked up, a bit angry for her for not knocking but I didn’t want to yell right now.

    “We think we found him!” I stood up at the news and ran over to her.

    “Where? Where is he?”

Shoto’s POV:

    I don’t know how long it’s been. I didn’t know the feeling of comfort anymore. I could barely remember what my husband looked like, as I was swallowed up in darkness and misery. It felt like I was drowned in darkness, not knowing true happiness anymore. I didn’t know the last time I smiled, and didn’t remember most things in my life before this.

    I had just gotten raped again, it becoming a daily thing. I hated the feeling, but couldn’t do anything about it. I was laying naked on the cold, cement floor, shivering and scared. I had lost all hope that I’d be found. I forgot all about society, and thought that by now, everyone had probably forgotten about me, including my husband. All I wanted now was to eventually fall into a pit of darkness and die.

    ‘Huh, that’s new’ I heard big booms in the distance, wondering what it was. Yeah, I was wondering, but I didn’t move from my spot on the ground.

    “S-Sho?” I looked up, dizzy and weak as I made out the shape of another human. I tensed up, scared something was gonna happen as he started running towards me. I started shivering from the cold and of how scared I was. There were cuts, bruises, scars, stabs, anything you could think of all over my body.

“NO, PLEASE…” I started crying. “PLEASE… DON’T HURT ME,” I cried. I was terrified. I could barely move my body with all the pain, so whatever he was about to do, would just hurt me more. He knelt down next to me, and seemed to be… crying? I tried to get out of the daze I was in, and realized who he was.

    “Sho, I’m so sorry… I’ve failed you as a husband,” he cried more, making me remember the memories of him as he embraced me, making me flinch out of habit.

    “A-Am I… f-finally d-d-dead?” I stuttered, barely being able to talk since my throat was so dry from screaming. He looked at me, eyes wide with tears freely flowing down his cheeks.

    “Y-You’re not dead. You’re safe now. I’ll never let anything happen to you ever again.”

    “Kacchan, did you find him?” I heard a loud noise which made me scared. Katsuki turned his head, probably glaring at whoever it was. I didn’t remember most people, or even care to remember.

    “Get some clothes,” he yelled back. The other guy nodded, and ran off probably to get clothes. Not long later, he came back holding what seemed like a big blanket.

    “I couldn’t find clothes but I found a blanket big enough to cover him while you walk out.” Katsuki nodded, taking the blanket and carefully wrapping it around me, finally being able to not be on the cold hard ground. He picked me up, trying to cause as little pain as possible, although it didn’t even matter. I was barely awake and even so, I wish I wasn’t awake, at least right now. While he was running, I started getting tired and started closing my eyes.

    “No, Shoto, don’t close your eyes,” I heard him say, almost like he was begging and pleading for me not to close my eyes. I didn’t listen, growing more and more tired by the second, and let the darkness engulf me.

Katsuki’s POV:

    “No, Shoto, don’t close your eyes,” I pleaded, hoping he’d listen. However, he didn’t and ended up closing them. I felt his heartbeat to make sure it was still there, which thankfully it was. He was breathing, not as much as he should, but enough to keep him alive. Whoever did this to him, deserved to die, but being a hero I can’t kill people, but I’d make sure they pay for what they did for my husband.

    I continued running until we got outside, the light basically blinding me but I didn’t care. All I cared about was my husband who was barely alive. I finally had him, and I would never let him go ever again. Luckily there was an ambulance on standby outside of the building so I had the doctors bring him to the hospital, me obviously coming with. I would never leave him alone ever again. I’ve been such a terrible husband and I needed to regain my life with him. HE needed to regain the last year of his life.

    I stayed with him throughout the whole ride to the hospital, him not showing any signs of waking up which worried me, but I was a lot happier that I finally found him and that he’s alive… at least for now.

    We got to the hospital and right away, they rushed Shoto through the doors. I followed, wanting to be there for him, but one of them stopped me when I got to his room.

    “I’m sorry, but you can’t come in right now. The nurses need space to do their work.”

    “But I need to be with him. He’ll be terrified if he wakes up and I’m not there with him,” I protested.

    “I understand, but they need to work. Once we’re done, we’ll let you inside.” I nodded slowly, knowing that they had to do their work and if I went in, I’d just be in the way. I sat down on a chair outside of his room, waiting for the nurses to allow visitors.