𝕊𝕖𝕠𝕦𝕝-𝕥𝕚𝕖𝕤

14.

There WILL be typos, i don't usually go back and edit chapters. If you see a mistake. No you didn't.

I zoned out as i ran... Not thinking just running. No thoughts.... Only Running. My music blast through my headphones. I've ran at least 3 miles by now. My workout was extensive and My mind was everywhere. Im sure my toe is stubbed from me dropping weights on it multiple times. So after the sesh i decided to run on the treadmill.

I couldn't wrap my mind around everything that happened a week ago. From what I know the guys were still in America. But i couldn't bring myself to face them. I was ashamed.... and Hobi. I never thought he'd take it that far.

I was ashamed... for many reason... I technically helped a mated person cheat. But i was most shameful because I actually felt something during the moment we shared. It felt so good and that makes me so sad. How dare i feel that way towards someone else's mate. I feel like I stole a piece of something that was specially made for someone else.... I have been beating myself up ever since that day.

I can't even go to sleep with out dreaming about what happened... I can't take a shower without feeling his heat grinding up against me. 

I didn't even realize how absorbed i was in my thoughts until my music suddenly stopped. I pressed the stop button on the treadmill to stop it before putting my hands down on my knees and taking a breather.

I reached up taking my headphones off to see if they died but they were still powered on. Grabbing my phone out of the cup holder i found that it was dead.

I grabbed my things and put them into my duffle bag before leaving the gym and using the elevator to go up to my Condo.

I quickly got into the shower. trying not to take too long. I really didn't want to start another day dream... I need to get my shit together. I had an interview yesterday... I kept stumbling over my words.

Lia invited me to dinner tonight but I declined. She said she's noticed that i hadn't been hanging around the guys much and i just told her my social battery died and i needed a break. She said that was a good idea and not to push myself. But im scared of what she'd think of me if she knew the real reason.

After my shower i began to get dressed when my phone started to ring. Every time it rings i freeze up. When i first started ignoring the guys. once they realized they spammed my phone. I felt so bad. Even jin spammed me... He seemed so worried but i couldn't bring myself to face them. I didn't deserve their worry. I had betrayed them.

I think Hobi called me 20 times a day. It got so bad that i eventually blocked them all. I remember occasionally Lia would mention them... slip them in our convos every now and then. I'd always find a clever way to change the topic. At least i thought i was being smooth about it. But every now and then i'd catch her squinting at me. Almost as if she knew something I didn't.

I decided to let my phone ring. But then I picked it up turning it over to see a miss call from an unknown number. I shrugged locking my phone about to sit it back down when A message came thru... but this time it was from Lia.

"Open the door. I bought something for you."

I dropped my phone walking to my door. Opening it i went to speak but all the words were caught in my throat. Standing in front of me was Jeon Jungkook.... from BTS.

What the hell

was the only thing that went through my head

I looked him from his feet up trying to stop the weird feeling that sprung thru my body the literal minute i saw him.