My New Home

48. Benji, My Brother.

~ WARNING: Childhood abuse & self-harm mentioned ~

I woke up to more messages from BillyClove16.

It was hours later, I really needed that sleep, I woke up feeling refreshed- well that is - until I remembered everything thats happened today.

It was only noon too.

Something tells me today won't be ending well in the slightest.

I was about to click on the message- seconds away when a knock on my door made me jump back so far and scream.

"Carrie! What's wrong sweetie?!" I clutched my chest and breath hard. It was only Hank. Carrie, you gotta calm down.

"I'm fine, I'm fine! You scared me that's all!" I ran to the door and opened it; standing there was Hank, he had a plate with a sandwich on one had a refreshing looking beverage on the other.

"I brought lunch, to apologize." He said, a weary smile plastered on his face. "Thanks," I said as I took the stuff; I narrowed my eyes. "But why're you apologizing? You did nothing wrong."

He rubbed the back of his neck. "I have to go back to work-" He rushes the next part. "I am so sorry! I just have to get this work done. I'll be home before you know it! I can call Eric if its too much; yeah, I'll call Eric!"

He pulled out his phone but I shook my head. "I'll be fine, I'd like to be alone at home." And I needed to talk to my father- unfortunately.

Hopefully he doesn't do anything crazy.

"O-okay but if anything happens, call me. I'll be here in minutes, promise honey."

"I will." That's a lie.

"Alright enjoy the sandwich, I'll see you soon. I love you."

"Love you so much Hank." I said as he walked away.

Now it was just me, myself, and the dreadful messages that await me. I carefully go back to my bed where my phone sits and pick it up.

Fuck, I know this'll not go well.

I unlock my phone and look at the texts.

BillyClove16
You've seen the text but haven't answered me
Why?
All I want is to have you again.

I frowned, I was angry now.

He could never 'have' me again. Never again will he be able to see me, he lost that right when he touched me wrongly at age six.

Without thinking, I type back.

Carrie
Don't ever contact me again.

His answer was almost immediate.

BillyClove16
Oh baby, I'm so glad you answered
I missed you so much

Of course he doesn't care about what I said, only that I responded. It's out one ear and out the other until he hears something he likes.

Carrie
Don't talk to me.

BillyClove16
Don't be so harsh my love
I only want to make you my little girl again

The way he speaks, the things he calls me, I know I can't go with him. I wouldn't even be safe with him. Neither would my brothers, we aren't even safe right now.