Snow On The Beach | AruAni highschool fanfiction | Attack on Titan

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~Annie's POV~ 

The project goes well. I can finally breathe a sigh of relief, knowing I won't have to worry about it anymore. And I won't have to worry about talking to Armin anymore. We can both go our separate ways and never talk to each other again. He has his friends and I've got Hitch. I'll find something to keep me busy while she's on her Christmas holiday. The word Christmas rings through my head when I realize I'm gonna have to talk to Armin again. Very, very soon. I sigh, but this time it isn't out of relief. I agreed to go spend Christmas with him and his grandfather. And I don't know why. It kinda just happened in the moment. Him asking me, me agreeing, us hanging out afterwards. It was never supposed to happen. We were never supposed to get close. At least not close enough to be spending Christmas together. I wish I hadn't forgiven him for the incident that occurred at my house. It wasn't his fault but it would've ensured we both went our separate ways and never spoke to each other again. Maybe giving him a chance of friendship is worth it. But I don't want him getting too close. I can't have myself revealing too much personal information because I know it'll push him away. He can't find out what I'm going through. It's too much. I'm too much. He can't deal with that. He'll leave. Just like everyone else. Somehow Hitch has stayed despite everything but I'm starting to think that's because she has no one else as well. 

I want to push Armin away before he dives too deep into my issues and realizes there's no way out. Before he gets too maimed. He already knows enough about me. Enough to pity me. But knowing more will only hurt him more. And his aura is just so bright and welcoming, it makes me want to open up. That's why he's dangerous. In a way, we both are dangerous to each other. I'm a danger to his mental health and he's a danger to my memories and in a way, a danger to himself. If he finds out, it'll ruin him. He can't know anything else. No one can. Not even Hitch. 

"You better spill all the tea about Christmas once I come home." There's a sly smile on Hitch's face. I told her about celebrating Christmas with Armin tomorrow and she wants to know all the details. 

I'm sat on her bed, feeding her dog a treat. I completely ignore her remark. "Who's watching over Sugar while you're away?" 

"Her aunt would if she didn't have a cat." Hitch rolls her eyes. She puts a sweater in her suitcase. I know she's referring to Taylor and I but I also know she's joking about the last part. "She's coming with us this year. My parents finally caved."  

I nod. Sugar is a dog Hitch got for her 13th birthday. She was one of those gifts her parents thought would make her love them more. And as much as Hitch loves her parents, all she wants is to spend more time with them. That's why she values Christmas so much. 

"Now, don't avoid my statement from earlier. I'll be waiting for updates." She zips up the suitcase and leaves it aside. She walks over to her vanity and looks through all her makeup. She's muttering something about which makeup to take. Then, she turns to me. "Oh! And this doesn't mean our bet is cancelled. You're still going to that party with me." 

I scoff. I decide to me honest and blunt with her. It might sting a little but she needs to know. - "What's the point of me going if you're gonna spend the entire night drunk and flirting with Marlowe?" 

Hitch leaves her vanity and gracefully prances over to me. "The point is, dear Annie" she starts "for you to get to know people, meet someone and finally have your first dance. It might not be in the refrigerator light but I can arrange that." She winks. "I'm sure blondie wont mind dancing with you." 

I want to ignore Hitch's teasing remark but I also wouldn't might lightening up a little. I grab the pillow that's next to me and toss it at her. Thinking it's for her, Sugar runs after it. Hitch laughs at her toy poodle and sits next to me. "But seriously, Annie, you need to let more people in. I promise you no one else will maroon you."