When Love Is Obsession

Loving you

First of all..... Sorry sorry sorry.... I know sometimes sorry isn't Enough... I just lost my zeal....
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Ma : I can't ever be sorry for marrying you.... Instead, I am greatful you agreed to marry me after whatever I did..... Maine sorry tumhe hurt karne wajah seh bola thaa.... I couldn't respect you,your love.... That night trying to force you, I lost...both you and me.... I lost the beautiful love we had.... I just couldn't forgive myself....
Na : Manik..... Tum, tum saach mein itne stupid ho! Manik looked at her awkwardly  Ek baar you could have asked me, "Nandini tum mujhe maaf karogi....or, Nandini are you angry" but no, you decided to punish yourself, you couldn't forgive yourself so, you decided to mess up us.... Tum... you can do anything to punish yourself na? Manik was looking at her with guilty eyes. Wait a minute, kahi tum.... tumne yeah shadi.... Did you marry me to punish yourself? Nandini made him look into her eyes and bolo manik pov : Please say no.... please...
Ma : I.... I'm sorry.... Mujhe nahi pata... I didn't want to hurt you... mein.... Nandini instantly left him and took few steps back... Her head was spinning, Manik married her to punish himself!! He... He didn't love her!!!! She held her head as her vision was getting blurry... Manik ran to hold her.... Nandini..
Na : No.... She pushed him.... Don't don't touch me.... She's crying.... Tum... Kya socha tumne, "Manik Malhotra itna barj galti ki , punish yourself" and I... I'm your pu.. punishment.... She sat on the bed with a thud Whyyyy
Ma : I'm sorry.... I know my sorry isn't enough.... He's sitting on the ground holding her knees, Mujhe idea bhi nahi thaa things will get so complicated... Trust me Nandini, tum meri zindegi ho... Agar saza ho toh bhi yeah saza mujhe pyari hai.... You... you're the reason I surv....
Na : Stop....stop it... just stop it.... Enough now, she stood up, saza hu na mein tunhari? You want to punish yourself right! Let's get your punishment done right.... She took out her luggage and started packing her stuff....
Ma : Kya kaar rahi ho Nandini! Packing! Please don't do this to me, to us! He held her hands to stop her.... Nandini was not listening.... He hugged her tightly, she's struggling to move Please maat karo aisa Nandini.... I love you... bohot pyar karta hu tumse, maat jao mujhe chor k... We'll and we can sort out this.... I promise... I
Na : No , pushing him No we can't... We can never sort this... Pointing at the distance between them.... I can't live with someone who....who punishes himself by punishing others....
Ma : sitting on his knees and hugging her waist Nahi, maat karo aisa, maar jaaunga mein tumhare ilawa, khatam ho jayega tumhara Mani...bohot muskil seh.... sameta hai meine khudko maat karo aisa please....
Na :  crying Tut toh hum gye hai.... Jane do mujhe Mani, yeah shadi bilkul khokli hai.... There's no...no love.... S he e pushed him, Manik felt and his hand hit the bed corner resulting in a cut which was bleeding. Manik closed his eyes.... Nandini got worried Mani... Careful
Ma : Bash!!! Showing his hand koi zarurat nahi... Tumhe Jana hai na, go.... Tumhe koi farak nhi parna cahiye k tunhare jane seh tumhara Mani jiye ya maar... Nandini placed her hand on his mouth and nodded her head in no.... Manik watched her for a few seconds and then pulled her closed fisting her hair... Nandini closed her eyes Tumhe sach mein lagta hai ki I... I don't love you!? Boloh... Nandini was not able to answer.... He brought them near the mirror.... Enough of pleading, tumhe jana hai na? Jao, but, uske pehle, watch your husband love you Mrs Nandini Manik Malhotra.... Nandini felt chills down her spine.... Open your eyes Nandini.... I want k tum dekho, how much and how I show my love.... Nandini saw raw passion in his eyes.... Before she could understand, Manik started kissing her... Bitting hee lips... He was kissing her with intensity Nandini couldn't match... She struggled to free herself. He detached their lips feeling lack of oxygen.. Nandini took steps back breathing heavily... Manik smirked watching her lips....
Na : Ma... manik, what are you... Dekho tum ...
Ma : Shhh.... Aaj whatever happens will be with my will, no regret, no punishment, no guilt.... Aaj sirt mera pyaar dekhogi tum.... Aur I won't ever be sorry for this Mrs Malhotra. He picked her up and placed her on the bed... Nandini tried to get down but Manik stopped her. Nandini looked at him shocked. Manik caged her and hovered over her. Opened his shirt and kissed her again. He was kissing her her jaw lines.... Nandini was now slowly melting in his touches.... Manik smirked again noticing her reacting.... He slowly pulled down the string of her kurti from back kissing her shoulder.... Nandini hugged him... He whispered in her ears You can stop me if you want, but if you don't, then I want you to see me Love you.... he bit her earlobe.... Nandini hugged him tightly... Manik smiled.... He kissed her forehead, Nandini was smiling.... Words Mrs Malhotra words...
Na : I Love you Mani.... She kissed his mole..... Manik closed his eyes and held her waist.

Manik kissed her and showered her with his love.... Before taking off her clothes, Manik asked for permission.... Nandini nodded.... That was it.... The room witnessed them making love... Manik getting submerged in her love... Nandini getting lost in his raw passion.... Manik was raw and rough.... He kept his words. He made Nandini keep her eyes wide open so that she can see his love....

It was early dawn.... Nandini was sleeping peacefully keeping her head on Manik 's chest... Manik was however awake, he's patting Nandini 's head and kissing her head... He noticed their condition... And smiled... He saw the sun coming out... He closed his eyes and a lone tear escaped... He rubbed it....

Ma : pov : Nandini, I made you so vulnerable that you lost faith in us? Mujhe pata kaise nahi chala k mein khudke sath sath tumhe bhi punish kaar raha hu!! I love you, I wanted to make love to you but .... But not in this situation.... I had to do it, to....to... Stop you, nahi rehe sakta mein tumhare ilawa..... We completed our marriage today, but.... No, I can't let her know that I made love to her only to stop her..... Pyaar hai Nandu, bush, I'm afraid.... What if! Tumhe hurt kiya meine.... I fucking tried to rape.... I can't get over it.... Still, you love me so much.... This, this is making me feel more guilty..... Manik closed his eyes again and hugged Nandini tightly..... Kaal raat, only I know, how weak I felt.... I was getting flashback of the night I forced you.... God!! I know even you got flashback, but, just for me, tum kuch nahi bol pai.... God, please give me power to get over my guilt.... His self talk got interrupted when he felt Nandini poking him .... He opened his eyes and saw Nandini trying to get out of his hold.... Huh! Nandu, tum kya kar
Na : I know, I know everything, jane do mujhe....
Ma : Kya? Kya you know.... Nandu abhi toh hum
Na : Enough, Manik, In expected you to love me, aur tum.... You made love just just to stop me, not to actually love me.... Do you ever realise how insulting is it? I don't want to live with you.... I better die choro mujhe....
Ma : Nandu please, try to.... She pushed him and went to the washroom. Manik wore his boxers. He banged the washroom door but no response.... He heard constant water running sound... He kept pushing the door, finally it opened. Entering the washroom he felt his heart stopping. Nandini was lying in the bathtub full of water.... Lifeless ... He went near her.... Nandu, nandu, yeah....yeah kya kiyaa tumne.... He screamed Nandiniii.......