𝐁𝐀𝐃 𝐌𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐒 𝐁𝐀𝐃

Don't Blame Me

"Why are you so difficult" I grunt turning my hand into a fist, He looks down and sees my hand. "I don't want this feeling. But it hurts like a bitch when I'm not with you" His smirk fades away.

Jeez okay, I feel something towards him too but I hate it so fucking much. "You keep trying to push it away but you can't" He leans into my ear and whispers

He can read me just like a fucking book and it kills me, "Keep pushing me away, Breaking my heart or even destroys me but I'll still run to you"

"Love you in a swimsuit" He smiles then. walks away to his friends, "So he was cheating on me with you two?" I hear Beatrice talk behind me

"No, Of course not." I turn around and see her smiling at me, "Don't be, I don't care about that asshole no more" Beatrice chuckles turning to look at him

"Oh is that so?" I question crossing my arms, "Yea I met someone who truly likes me for me" Beatrice smile, She turns her head to stare at Liz...

Beatrice and Liz?! I'm surprised how did that happen? "Oh, that's good" I slightly beam. "Yea anyways um you should go for it, Never seen Dacre chase after a girl this hard" Beatrice softly chuckled

"I don't think I'm ready for a relationship" I sighed looking down at the ground ignoring eye contact, "Whys that?" Beatrice asked curiously

"I just don't know, I'm not ready to love someone again" My voice broke mid-sentence as If I was about to burst into tears 

"I'm sorry I have to go" I move Beatrice to the side running back into the cabin, I run into my room and slam the door shut

Fuck I can't with myself anymore, The truth is I'm afraid to love someone again, After what Blake did I can't trust myself to fall in love 

"Sage?" Blake knocked on my door softly, Really why the universe must really hate me "What the fuck is it!" I shouted opening the door wide open

"I just saw you running I decided to see if you were okay" Blake spoke nervously, "No I'm not goddamn okay!" I shouted bursting into tears

Blake pulled me into his arms softly rubbing my back, At this point, I didn't care if the person who hurt me the most was comforting me I just wanted a hug this badly

"Hey it's okay, Tell me what's wrong?" Blake's voice sounded so comforting yet I hated it, "You ruined me, I can't love because of  you and I will always hate you for it"

I push him off me banging on his chest making him bump into the wall across from us, "Hey stop!" Blake grabbed onto my arms shouting

"I'm sorry okay! I'm sorry I cheated I'm sorry I used you and I regret the day we broke up, But just because one fucking idiot broke your heart doesn't mean you can't love someone else,"

Blake gently lets go of my hands staring directly into my eyes, His eyes were tearing up by the second he kept talking

 "So please don't make me be the reason you can't love someone" His voice broke as a tear rolled down his cheek, "Are you okay?" I frown wiping the tears from my face

"What shit sorry just got too emotional" He chuckled looking away from me, "Wow um seemed like you changed" I stutter nervously 

"I have, And I mean it if you love Dacre go for it before it's too late," Blake said walking away and heading back downstairs

I never expected the guy who broke my heart to be the one to comfort me, He's right before I know it Dacre is probably falling for someone else right now

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"I like you?" I stutter pacing across my room, "Hm no a little more like passionate" Ruby stares at me pacing across the room sitting beside Arabella eating chocolate

"Stop, Just tell him how you feel what feels right" Arabella rolls her eyes and walks up to me, "Your right, Well here I go" I confidently place my hand on the doorknob

"Mhm," Arabella smiles as they both watch me, "Okay now I'm going" I twist the doorknob slowly hesitating to open the door, "Okay so now you just pull the door" Ruby teasingly smiles

"Yea forgot," I chuckle opening the door, "Now I walk out and knock on his door" I mutter under my breath, "Oh fuck it" I roll my eyes walking up to Cody's door

I softly knock waiting patiently for Dacre to open up, "Sage?" Cody opened up seeming confused, "Hey can I talk to Dacre?" I whisper 

"He's not here he must be outside" Cody grins, "Oh I thought the party ended isn't everyone packing?"

I question curiously, "Yea he's done packing, He must be drinking or something" Cody smiles reassuringly "Right" I smile heading downstairs

Dacre wasn't in the kitchen or living room, It was quiet for once maybe too quiet... I slid the glass door expecting him to be by himself waiting for me or something?

All you could see were the lights from the pool, My heart skipped a beat when I watch Dacre making out passionately with Nat in the pool

Her legs wrapped around his waist while his arms were wrapped around hers, They haven't noticed me just staring directly at them, Blake was right it's too late god I'm such a dumbass!

I ran back inside to my room slamming the door shut behind me, "Everything okay?" Arabella asked walking up to me, "No just god what a fucking whore!" I shout as I felt my blood boil

"What happened?" Ruby walked up to me concerningly "Nothing, Nothing I'll be fine" I fake smile trying to hold in my anger.