Cold Blooded (Hiccstrid)

Temptations

~Astrid's P.O.V~

As the summer goes on I mostly stayed at home but visit Hiccup a lot. His injury impacted his lifestyle as adjusting things differently will be complicated for him. I feel so regretted that this is my fault that I let this happened.

If Hiccup hasn't met me, he would had his both feet. But if not meeting him a lot of things could of been worse. Sometimes I still think about it, I just cannot denied the feeling of the urge but I know I can fight this feeling.

Hopefully one day I can put this behind, but what's worse of this outcome is the lives I took. They didn't get Justice and I'm still roaming around freely, perhaps Grimmel was right.

I was currently laying down on my bed, hands behind the back of my head and stare at my ceiling.

"Argh! You okay Astrid?"Stormfly interrupted my thoughts.

I look over at Stormfly"I'm okay girl, just been quite off".

"You'll be okay! Argu!"Stormfly says, cheerfully.

I smile and pet her"thanks".

I then went downstairs to the kitchen to grab a drink of water, my Mom is working while I'm just being lazy. I could work but I don't want to be out in public just yet.

I then grabbed the filtered water jug in the refrigerator as I pour glass for myself, put the jug away and stare at the kitchen window, seeing the bright sunset reflecting back at me.

What caught my attention was the stack of kitchen knives on the counter, my thoughts process as I couldn't stop looking as I stare at them.

For some reason an odd voice told me to take it, my hand slowly reach for it as I started to shake abit like I couldn't get ahold of myself. These temptations are holding me, I can't take it any longer but no, I promise myself, I promise to Him.

A loud knock on the door break my attention as I reached back and panted lightly, I look over at the door and back at the kitchen knives but I shook my head to go answer the door instead.

"Hello?"I answer, looking over to see Cami.

"Hey Astrid! So sorry to barged in".

"Oh no worries at all"I chuckle nervously"come in".

Cami walked inside as we went to the living room.

"I was just checking to see how you been lately, you've never really chat with us girls"Cami sits down on the sofa.

"Oh really?? Jheeze I just been so busy, I never really chat with anybody it's just....Hiccup he's..."I look away.

"I understand"She assures me"we just wanna know if you're doing okay, after Hiccup's accident. I know you really care about him a lot".

I slightly blush"I-I-I do, I felt like I'm responsible for his accident".

"Oh nonsense! It's not your fault Astrid! I'm just glad you're doing okay, remember we're here for you too"Cami smiles at me, as her reassurance comforts me.

"Thanks Cami, I'm glad you care"I felt relieved just abit.

"Anytime! Say! Wanna go out to get a nice cooling drink!?"She offers.