Mixtape

[5]

2 days later

"So how's it going with Hyunjin's therapy?" Jimin asked, laying himself down on the couch

"Um, I guess it's going well. He still does have melt downs and panic attacks but they're less frequent than they were before therapy" Taehyung asked, laying down aswell as he rubbed his eyes

"Have you figured out what the problem is?" Jimin asked

"He hasn't told me. I'm not even sure if he tells his therapist everything" Taehyung replied, letting a little chuckle slip through

"So who is his therapist?" Jimin asked, sitting back up as he walked over to the kitchen

"This really kind lady, she's also really pretty, like immaculate"

"Ok, first of all, you are gay. Second of all, you have a boyfriend. Third of all, I wanted a name not a description" Jimin said, pouring himself a glass of orange juice

"Uh...I think her name was Angela...Angela Yun" Taehyung replied, scratching the top of his head with his finger

"I think I know her. Apparently she used to be like psycho or some shit. She was in a mental hospital because of some past life shit, not like I believe in those things" Jimin laughed, walking back into the lounge with another glass for Taehyung

"What do you mean 'past life shit'?" Taehyung asked, sitting up from his laying position

"It's actually really crazy. It went something like she was the daughter of the secretary to the ceo of a big idol industry. Then one of her friend's idols committed suicide, leading her idol to commit suicide"

"Then how'd she die?" Taehyung asked, getting more and more invested

"From what she said, her and her wife who I forgot the name of, were involved in a head on head collision. They both died in that car" Jimin responded, sitting his empty glass on the coffee table

"Holy shit. That's kinda sad" Taehyung sighed, a slight frown on his face

"You really believe that shit?" Jimin asked, cocking an eyebrow at the male

"I mean I don't necessarily believe in it. It's just shocking and a tad bit sad, you know" He replied

"It's crazy. I wonder what I was in my past life" Jimin sighed, staring at the ceiling

"Probably a prostitute" Taehyung laughed

"Fuck off" He snapped back, glaring at the male

"So tell me, is that the reason she decided to become a therapist?" Taehyung asked, still hung up on the story

"Yeah, I guess so. Maybe it's better for those who come to her with the same issues" Jimin responded

"That makes sense. Wanna get faded?" Taehyung asked, pointing his thumb behind him

"Maybe tomorrow. I have to go see my mom right now" Jimin said, looking at his watch

"Alright, I'm going now" Jimin said as he hugged Taehyung

"Cool, see you tomorrow" Taehyung replied, hugging him back

He smiled as he watched his friend walk out the door and into his car

Once the male drove away, he sighed and closed the front door

He walked to the kitchen counter and grabbed his lighter

He made his way to his room and opened the door to his balcony, taking a deep breath as he was hit with the afternoon breeze

Just as he lit the tip of his cigarette, he heard a scream of pain from the room beside him

He dropped his cigarette to the floor and stomped on it, throwing his lighter on his bed as be sprinted out of his room

He swung the door open just as he was feeling a bit breathless, partially from anxiety and partially from his bad smoking habit

His eyes dropped onto his little brother, sitting in fetal position on the floor with his face buried in his hands as he continued to cry

"Hyunjin, what happened?" Taehyung panicked, rushing to the male's side

He wrapped his arms around Hyunjin and pulled him closer, rocking him and he continued to cry

"Are you okay buddy?" He whispered, rubbing circles onto the male's back

Hyunjin felt his chest close up, his vision going blurry as he choked on his cries

This was one thing Hyunjin hated about himself. How emotional he was

Whether his loud cries were necessary or not, he hated how sensitive he was to emotions

He hated how bad his panic attacks would get, how his anxiety would just all of a sudden reach its peak

He hated how he felt like he was dying everytime he was defeated by his emotions

He believed that he was too emotional for a man, he wished he could change that

Taehyung was more worried than he was confused, it had been a long time since he heard Hyunjin scream like that

He was completely oblivious to the situation but he knew that all he needed to do is hold the male until he calmed down

"It's okay Hyun. I'm here for you" He whispered, kissing the top of his head

If he needed to hold him for hours upon hours just so the male would speak, he'd do exactly that

Hyunjin knew why he was acting tnsi way but he didn't know of a way to tell his brother

It was the 15th of August. A day that brought him a huge wave of misery for a reason he still had yet to find out

Everything wasn't adding. He's been in these situations way too often for his licking

What was happening? Was therapy helping? Or was it just a waist of time?

-

"Happy birthday Felix!" Namjoon exclaimed, blowing his birthday horn

"Thank you Joonie, means a lot" Felix said, giving the male a soft smile

"You don't look so happy. What's wrong?" Namjoon asked, putting his arm on Felix's shoulder

"Something is off I guess. You know that feeling when you can just sense that someone or something isn't right? Yeah" Felix replied fiddling with his fingers as he looked down

What could be wrong? Not only did he need to figure that out, but so did the male he was destined to be with

~♡~

I ate 3 donuts for breakfast so I'm good today :)

Thoughts??

Ilysm ♡