Mixtape

[6]

"I'm out! Bye Momo!" Felix announced, grabbing his skateboard and his phone before walking out of the door

It was late in twh afternoon. The sun was close to saying its goodbyes as it layed it's head down on the hills ahead of him

Felix took a deep breath, taking in the warm and safe atmosphere as he put his headsets on and put his playlist on shuffle play

He focused on the empty road ahead of him as he put his foot down on the ground while the other stayed put on the skateboard

With a little push against the ground, he went gliding down the street

He closed his eyes for a split second as the air hugged his face, pushing his hair back as it flowed with the wind

Never had he felt so free

Destination? Anywhere his feet and beloved skateboard lead him

He came to a haunt as he reached the road intersection, short lines of cars sat on the road as the pedestrian sign lit up

He quickly and carefully crossed the street, bobbing his head to the music that distracted his ears

He reached the end of the cross line, sighing as he searched for a place to relax ahead of him

His eyes snapped to the side as he saw a sign that read 'Stayville Park'

With another huff, he held his skateboard under his arm as he started walking into the green grass

An unexpected smile creeped onto his face as he looked around the park. The flowers that stuck out from the ground making it hard for the boy not to show how happy he was

His smile dropped in a split second as he felt a painful pang at his heart. Why? He had envy

Parents sat on benches and on the ground with their kids, laughing, smiling, telling jokes, playing games and eating

It was something that would bring a smile to someone's face. Something that would brighten someone's day. But that someone was certainly not Felix

Felix always dreaded seing parents spend time with their children. Dreaded seing them smile at eachother, laugh with eachother's. He dreaded seing Parents love their children

Because he never felt that sort of love in his whole life

The first thing he could remember upon growing up was living with a bunch of kids in an orphanage

They'd sugar coat the name just to make sure he wouldn't grow up feeling unloved...it didn't work

They'd say he was in a 'forever kindergarten'. They'd say it was a place Santa would send all the good boys and girls to

Ofcourse at a young age he'd believe that but as time passed he realized that they were only lies

That the only reason he was there was because all his mother wanted was to have sex with a rich man

She never wanted money. She wanted clothes, a mansion, fame and sex. Sex with someone she knew she'd never have the privilege of marrying

She never wanted a child

She nerve wanted Felix

Felix finally snapped out of it, cringing as he realized he'd been standing on the grass and staring into nothing this whole time

Just as he was about to sit down on a distant bench he'd seen, a specific tall male caught his eye

"It's the Hyunjin" He said, a smile spreading across his face as his feet involuntarily made his way to the male

Hyunjin layed on the grass, a smile flower twirling around between his fingers as he stared at it

His hair was spread graciously on the grass as the sun's gentle afternoon rays kissed his skin

His lips remained parted as he took slow and small breaths, taking in all that the atmosphere had to give him

Peace. For once in a while, he'd felt true peace. His mind was at ease and so was his body. It was paradise. It was peace

"What you doing there?" He heard an oddly familiar voice ring from above him

He opened his eyes to find a silver-blonde haired male staring down at him, his head blocking the warm sun as his smile served as a better source of light and warmth

"You're blocking the sun you weirdo" Hyunjin spoke, a smile growing on his face as a gasp emitted form the male above him

"How dare you call me a weirdo" Felix said, holding his hand to his chest as he showed offense

"Are you continue hovering over me or are you gonna sit beside me?" Hyunjin asked, cocking an eyebrow at the male as he unknowing smirk crawled on his face

Felix sighed and moved from where he stood, groaning as he slid his headsets down to his neck and layed hus skateboard down beside him

He let out another humorously pained grunt as he plopped himself down on the soft grass beside the taller male

"Are you okay grandpa?" Hyunjin teased, rolling onto his side as he propped his head up with his hand while his elbow dug into the ground

"Don't call me that ever again" Felix chuckles, laying down beside the male

They both took a few seconds to mindlessly stare into the sky, their eyes fluttering as the wind swung past them

"Hey Hyunjin" Felix called out, turning his head to the male beside him as Hyunjin did the same with a hum

"Yeah?" Hyunjin spoke, his eyes roaming down to the male's parted pink lips and back to his starry eyes

"Do you ever feel like you're missing something? Like you just don't know anymore...what's real and what's not. Like something is supposed to get solved but you just...you just don't know enough"

Felix immediately regretted speaking as he ran through a "Sorry, I don't know I was saying, ignore it" at the male's frozen body

"No...don't apologize. I thought I was the only one" Hyunjin spoke, laying back down as his eyes glued onto the weirdly shaped cloud in the sky

"So...are you missing someone?" Felix asked, laying back down aswell as he stared into the sky

I miss him

I miss him so fucking much

"I mim him too much" Hyunjin emitted, a sigh escaping his lips right after

"Who are you missing Hyunjin?" Felix asked, feeling a hand creep onto his

He looked down at his hand, finding a pinky locking his in its hold, squeezing slightly which made his heart skip a beat

"I don't know..."

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I'M IN THE FUCKING BUNDUS MAN!! THE CONNECTION HERE IS KAK AND I FOUND A DAMN FROG IN MY CROCS 😭😭😭

I'll update more in a few days. Please bare with me, I'm so sorry <33