It's a funny thing. Even after listening to my best friends tell me all these reasons I should let you go, I can't. I know they are right with the things they say.
You fit all of the things that I want/need in a person. Things that I hadn't even realized were important in a person. But maybe it's just not you.
I suppose that's okay. But who's to say there will be another you? That part I find exceptionally difficult to imagine. I'm not sure if I want another you. Right now, I just want you and anyone else seems insignificant.
I know it is important for me to let go. Considering the circumstances, it makes the most sense. You are currently stuck on someone else, to ignorant to leave what you know isn't right for you. I know that means you're not available and ultimately forces me to feel things that aren't reciprocated. The amount of pain that comes with that should be enough to want to leave. And a tiny, microscopic part of me wants to.
But life is full of choices and things have ways of working themselves out. Whether it's in the way you had hoped for or not, things do work out. I believe that it's the choices we make that lead to those outcomes. Right now, I have a choice - to continue to wait for you, which can cause more pain, or make an effort to move on, which is a different kind of pain but with the potential of a better outcome.
I choose you.
If you knew, would you choose me too?
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Life's Introspection
RandomRandom thoughts that I have and want to remember. This book is for me, but you can read it if you want too.
