13 Dances (A Seventeen Fanfiction)

-13-

"Anyway, that's what I think about it. I know you'd probably scold me for it. You always told me to not water the flowers too much. But if they can't take so much water, why do they still drink it? I don't get it."

I smiled internally. I was back in the dark room and recognized his voice. My boyfriend didn't really have a talent for flowers and since I only heard the last part, I wondered which plant was dead now.

"Well, that's our very least problem right now, ain't it?", he said, changing the mood so rapidly I almost felt it. "It's just... I don't know", he continued, probably stroking my arm, "I had this absurd idea that if I tell you, you'll jolt up and scold me."

I wish I could. But then I wouldn't scold you, honey. We'll just buy you a new flower.

"They do say your vital signs get better, but I just don't have the patience."

My vital signs get better? Now that is some good news. But I don't want to wait more as well.

"Can I ask you something?"

Sure, go ahead.

"Why did you react to them? And not me?"

What do you mean?

"See, I get that Jun and Soonyoung are very important in your life, but I just hoped that your finger would have moved when I was here. Can't you give me a sign too? Just to make it easier for me? Promise I won't force you to marry me just because of a single movement."

I had moved my finger when they were here? Oh my gosh. I have to tell Sabrina later on.

"Listen, if you realized that you deserve something better than me and don't want to marry me, I can understand. I actually always thought I wasn't good enough for you."

No, honey, that is not true! You're the best thing that has ever happened to me! Why did you never tell me?

"But please-"

Oh no, his voice sounds so shaky...

"Please... Just come back."

Let me try moving my finger again. Come on, you can do it, just focus. Just an inch. Come ooooon...

I could clearly hear him crying now. And suddenly all my focus went from my finger back on him. Oh, how I loved him. Why did he not tell me that he doubted being good enough for me? I wanted to hold him, wipe away his tears and replace every single one with a kiss. I needed to tell him just how much I loved him. I needed to tell him that we would figure it out, that everything was alright and that both of us will be happy in the future. Internally, I was crying along with him. And so, we spent the precious given time by crying together.

<3

When I got back to my world, I felt exhausted. "You cried in your sleep", Sabrina told me as she wiped a tear away, "No wonder you're exhausted." I sniffed. "I miss him so much", I mumbled. "But now you're even more worried that your love isn't enough", she gave back. I nodded, slightly surprised by her clear words. "You'll figure it out", she encouraged me and stroke my arm, "Somehow you will." "I'll try", I said with a brave smile. "That's the spirit!", she smiled and got up, offering me her hand. "Let's go outside for a while. I reckon you could enjoy the flowers." I shrugged and let myself get pulled up, following her.

We walked through the garden for a while, her talking about this and that while I didn't pay attention. Sabrina barely talked so much and usually I would listen intensly because it might be important for me but this time I just wasn't interested. All my thoughts were about him. My company eventually figured and went silent. Instead, she brought me back to the cottage. "You should sleep a bit", she then gently advised me while opening the door for me. "Maybe", I agreed and went inside, falling into the bed. I felt so heavy, so tired. Before I knew it, I was fast asleep. But I could swear I saw Sabrina smiling meaningful.