I love you..

Chapter 9

Dazai's POV:

I had no way to run. Yes, I knew this place very well and all, but I'm scared of being caught by cameras. "Jump Dazai" I heard from the other side of the room, it was Akutagawa. "Oh, but I can't commit double suicide alone!~" I overdramatized. "Dazai, we're on the second floor, you'll be fine. Now jump." He opened the window and I got closer to it, hoping I wasn't caught by some cameras. "Should I trust this emo? I mean.. who knows?" Without thinking, I climbed out the window and jumped. It wasn't really far away from the ground, so I landed perfectly. I looked up to notice Akutagawa was already gone, so I ran off to my place, in the hope Mori doesn't notice me from his window.

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The next few days were the same: waking up, going to work, coming back home, and sleeping. Sometimes, Atsushi was talking about how he and Akutagawa became great buddies, and I'm always interested in gossip! But the next day, I came to work as usual: kunikada working, Ranpo eating his snacks at his office, Kenji taking care of some plants and the siblings were being a little awkward.. but I haven't noticed Atsushi today. I was walking to the office when someone pulled me aside into another small room, and it was Atsushi. "Hey, Atsushi! You ok?" He looked a little worried about something. 

"Hey uhh Dazai.. could you help me with something?"

"Sure man, with what?"

"How to uhm.." he took a deep breath to calm himself from his embarrassment "how to confess to someone.."

"To Akutagawa?" He immediately blushed, put his head into his hands, and nodded. "Ha! Knew you liked him Atsushi!~" he looked at me like asking for help, but instead, he needed help for himself. I locked the door behind me and he sat down, I did too. "Ok, so. It mostly has to be honesty, only honesty, unless you want it to fail. Eye contact too, but not too much, just a little. Then, the way you say it is important because if you say it flatly, he'll think he's a joke to you. And most importantly, be yourself, well, not your worried self, try to be confident, you know what I mean." As I was giving him pieces of advice, he was taking some notes down. "Ok! Got everything!" Then, we spent so much time practicing it! He was.. terrible. But, after like.. one hour, he finally made it sound good.

I checked the time on my phone. "10:29.. I arrived here at 9 am, damn, we really did take so much time-" he was looking really proud, but the most important is that he still sounds like himself and not some shitty-ass fake just to impress someone. We both left the room and after hours, finished my work day. The rest of the day went terribly. Kenji accidentally spilled my coffee on my coat, so now it's ruined. And Kyouka was enjoying her time with Ranpo when she tripped and fell on the paperwork I finally decided to do, but I got fed up with everyone, so left with a smile. "What building has a great view.. I only can think of one.. well, that one shall it be!" I was having my little walk routine, but on the opposite side of my apartment, instead, I was headed to the Port Mafia building.

I arrived in front of the building and managed to get inside it by using my access card.. I might get caught by Mori, but how can I miss out on a chance like this! I somehow managed to get into the elevator without being caught by the other executives. When the elevator hit the roof floor, I left it. I admired the view in front of me. "I understand why Mori looks at it that much.. it is a great view." I said to myself. The sunset reflecting on the sea in front was giving this heart-warming feeling. Good. I took off my shoes and put them aside. I slowly got closer to the edge of the building, too excited to rush. "I can finally commit my suicide! Drowning didn't work, but jumping off a VERY tall building might be the thing I need!" I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to calm myself from my happiness. "One.. two.. three-"

"OY! WTF ARE YOU DOING MACKEREL?!" 

"Mackerel.. wait, only one person calls me that.." I turned around seeing Chuuya, mad, like.. very mad. "Hey, Chuuya! Can't you see I'm trying to commit suicide! Wanna join me? Double is always better!" 

"FUCK NO, AND YOU ARENT EITHER!" He stormed to me quickly and pulled me away from the edge, making me fall and so did he. He was very pissed at me, but I only smiled seeing how caring he could be without him even thinking about it. "PUT YOUR SHOES ON, I'LL BRING YOU ASSHOLE DOWN!" I sighed and put on my left shoe and then my right. I stood up, fixing my clothes when he grabbed me by my coat. "Don't you dare touch me or we'll both die. And it'll not count as suicide, Dazai." Hmph. He used his ability to get me down of the building, and he threw me on the floor while we were around.. two meters away from it. At this point, was why he that mad? "Hey uhh.." I was bleeding a little from the nose because of my fall, and he did hurt me "why are you so mad..? You know I'm a suicidal maniac.." he didn't answer right away but he did after a few moments "you can't leave yet! AND NEVER DO THAT IN FRONT OF ME OR I'LL KILL YOU MYSELF!" 

"Technically, I didn't know you were there.. what were you doing up there anyways..?"

"I was smoking if you didn't know. I sometimes do that once a week." This was new information I wasn't aware of. "Does Chuuya smoke now!? I mean.. it makes him look a little badass-" he put his foot on my body like he gained a victory. "And you better never come back to my work's office to see you die. The only death you can get is being killed by me, asshole. Now you better not talk to me until you give me a proper apology, Mackerel." And with that, he left. At this point, I now had to think about an apology because I'm terrible at them..

This will be hard.