"No matter how much, or how often people hurt each other, loving someone is never a waste" -Nana Osaki, Nana
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❤️chapter 18:missing you badly❤️
Never in my life I've felt so empty. It feels like my heart has no heartbeat, no pulse, no blood is rushing through my veins. I feel so empty inside..and for the first time in my life I'm experiencing the pain that people call "heartbreak".
It's been two weeks since Sukuna left after he was suspended for punching Aizen. At first I was really mad, pissed even, because I didn't knew why he did it. But days passed, the vibe changed and I'm no longer mad. Just...sad.
I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, I know I should forget about Sukuna once and for all, I have a perfect opportunity to be with a man like Aizen, who knows what he wants, but..I can't. I just can't force it.
"What do you mean you can force it?", Nobara spoke to me, while we were sitting on my bed one rainy afternoon, "of course you can!".
The day for Sukuna's return is really close and I've been feeling really down. It was hard not to notice, so I told Nobara what was on my mind. Of course she didn't understand me. Why would she? She is in a happy relationship with a man, who's not playing her.
"Y/n, these feelings that you have for Sukuna are not healthy! You should just drop that idea that you have in your head and..move on!".
"I know..", I said. Nobara didn't need to tell me something that i already knew, but I just couldn't help myself.
"You're a smart girl, I know that you understand why am I trying to say, right?".
"Right".
I honestly thought I can move on. I was even willing to push myself and start dating Aizen for some change.
But I was wrong...
That day, when he came back felt like a happy day for me. I remember the moment I saw the small black g-wagon parking in front of the college building. The front door of the passenger seat got wide open and Sukuna got out of the car.
Both me and Nobara were sitting on the bench nearby and we both watched as Yuuji was running to help his brother out with his stuff and suitcases. For a split second his red eyes fell on me, then they met mine.
His eyes quickly moved to Yuuji, it didn't even took him a second to began ignoring me. And his face was completely different. No, nothing on it changed, but for me..it looked different.
