It's funny how someone , who was just a stranger last year, can mean so much to you now. It's terrible that someone who meant so much to you last year, can be just a stranger now. There are nights I cry so hard that my body aches and I shake and I have to put my head in my pillow so no one hears me.
There are also nights I'm happy that you're happy and I think everything happens for a reason.
And there are also nights where I feel nothing at all. But there is never a night that you don't cross my mind.
A lot Can happen in 6 months but I never expected this. I turned the music louder so I won't hear my thoughts but it's stupid because the lyrics remind me of what I'm trying to forget. You are still my favorite chapter that I keep on re-reading night after night till my eyes are red with tears and my heart hurts from the memories of your lost touch.
I want you to drunk text me. I want you to think about me. Please fucking think about me sometimes because the only thing I do is think about you. You and I, always almost. Again and again. We were always on the verge of almost. Never nothing, never something. I think we were meant to be... but we did it all wrong.
No one knows how much I cried that night. I don't know how to go back to being strangers with someone who has my heart.
