Niall's P.O.V
I woke up sobbing uncontrollably unable to stop. I shook violently my hands over my face. The same one. The same nightmare I've been having for the past three weeks. I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to scream and run away from everything.
"I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE!! I HATE MY LIFE!!" I screamed smashing my fist on the window. The glass shattered and I stumbled downstairs in my shorts and tank top opening the front door and running down the street my fist bleeding heavily. It was raining and the wind blew everywhere. I had to tell someone. They had to save me. I ran up to my girlfriends house screaming hysterically banging on the door. It quickly opened and I rushed into the kitchen grabbing a knife.
"I...I can't Y/n I can't take this life." I sobbed gripping the knife tighter.
"Niall no. Please tell me what's wrong first. Please." She pleaded gently prising the knife out of my hand. I sobbed against her chest my hands over my face. She held me close stroking my hair as we stood there in silence. I sniffled clinging to her arms desperately.
"Shh. I'm here. I'm right here." Y/n cooed rubbing my arm.
"I...I can't...nightmare...hate...I'm a nobody." I whimpered trying to pull away but Y/n held me tight.
"I love you. Tell me about your nightmare sweetheart." She whispered.
"Everyone keeps telling me to kill myself and I'm nothing. I'm stupid fat ugly worthless and..."
"Look sweetheart I promise you that you're none of those things. I love you very very much. More than I love life. I couldn't bare it if you left me. You're my everything and I love you so much babe cause you made me happy when I didn't want to be. You're the reason I smile all the time. Where's your smile love? Where is it? I miss it baby. Bring it back please." Y/n whispered her nose touching mine and I tried so hard to smile because I'd do anything for Y/n.
"Come on kitten I know you can do it. I'll help you." She smiled and lightly tickled my side. I giggled a bit and she smiled wider.
"There's that smile! Now let's clean up your poor hand. What did you do to it?"
"I smashed a window." I whispered as she cleaned my hand before bandaging it up.
"Aw baby. Come on let's watch a movie yeah?" Y/n said kissing my lips. I nodded as sat on the sofa cuddled up in a thick blanket. Y/n put in frozen and we both snuggled as we watched.
My P.O.V
Halfway through the film there was a knock on the door. "I'll get it." I said kissing Niall's nose. I walked to the door and opened it to find a teenage girl standing there.
"Hi! Is Niall here? I was at his last concert but fainted halfway through and I really wanted to see him. Can I get a quick photo? I promise I won't freak out."
"Well...I don't think it's the right time. He's a bit upset."
"Please?"
"Fine ok. He's in the living room." I said. She ran in with...a bucket of water? Before I could register what was happening there was a splash and a scream followed by banging. The girl had thrown the water over Niall and was now hitting him with the bucket.
"YOURE A STUPID FAT UGLY NOTHING!! NO ONE LIKES YOU!! BIG FUCKING ASSHOLE!! GO KILL YOURSELF IT WOULD MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY..."
"GET THE FUCK OFF HIM YOU BITCH!!" I screamed wrestling her to the floor. Niall's head and nose were bleeding and he was shivering violently soaking wet under the blanket. I kicked the bitch out and slammed the door locking it. Niall ran to me his body crashing against mine as he sobbed.
"I love you. I'm sorry." He sobbed before rushing to the kitchen and locking it. I screamed and pounded on the door.
"NO NIALL OPEN THE DOOR!!" I screamed. I heard a small painful sob and with all my strength I broke down the door before grabbing the knife out of Niall's hands.
"I love you Niall! Please stay with me!" I whimpered holding him against me. Niall's sobs got louder as he said sorry over and over again. He breathed heavily looking down at his cut wrists.
"I can't feel anything!" He panicked his eyes starting to roll backwards as he sat on the floor.
"No baby stay with me please. I'm gonna call an ambulance sweetie just stay with me." I pleaded calling an ambulance with my mobile. Niall panted heavily lying on the ground and holding my hands.
"Breathe with me love. In and out." I said demonstrating. Niall tried his best to copy but tears ran down his cheeks.
"I'm so tired!" He wailed.
"Don't sleep Niall. Please don't sleep. Stay with me baby. Look come here." I said pulling him to my chest. Niall breathed heavily into it while I rubbed his back.
"There now. Remember when we first met? At the hospital. Weird place right?"
Niall nodded weakly struggling to keep his eyes open. I continued.
*flashback*
"Next patient!" I called out flipping through my notes. A cute sobbing blonde boy crept in clutching his arm.
"Hello. What's your name then?" I asked softly.
"N-Niall." He sniffled. I smiled.
"And what's wrong Niall? Hey don't cry it's ok." I whispered.
"My arm hurts!" He blurted out before collapsing in my arms. I rubbed his back and made him sit on the bed.
"Alright let me see." I said examining it. It was broken. Definitely broken.
"It's broken. Stay there and I'll get a bandage for it."
I went out got a cast and went back to see Niall scribbling something on my notes. He looked up startled as I closed the door.
"What are you doing?" I asked suspiciously.
"I...I really like you. You're pretty. I wrote my number down. Will you go out with me?" He asked blushing.
"Well...yeah! Cause I think you're really cute." I smirked and Niall grinned and couldn't stop staring at me as I put his cast on. And that was the start of a beautiful relationship.
*flashback over*
"I love you." I whispered cradling his head in my lap. Niall hummed a bit and closed his eyes just as the paramedics came in. They put a mask over Niall's face and laid him on a stretcher while I watched with tears streaming down my cheeks.
*at hospital*
Niall was lying on a bed his face as white as the bedsheets. There were bandages on his arms his head and fist. He was barely breathing. My poor Ni baby.
"I love you sweetheart. You're my everything. Please don't leave me." I whispered as tears slid down my cheeks. Niall breathed in and out oblivious to everything. The doctor told me his cuts weren't deep and he would wake up in a few hours. They let me take him home. I gently lifted his weak little body up and set him inside a taxi and we went home.
*at home*
Niall's P.O.V
*three hours later*
I was so cold. Every part of me ached. My eyes wouldn't open though I tried so hard. I started sobbing wriggling around trying to open them. I felt a hand caressing my cheek and I stopped crying my eyes fluttering open. Y/n smiled down at me kissing my sore nose gently. I nuzzled into her and yawned closing my eyes while she cradled me against her.
"Oh babe." Y/n mumbled kissing my head. I whimpered and grabbed her t shirt.
"It's ok bub. I'm right here." Y/n whispered.
"Hurts." I whispered as tears fell.
"I know baby penguin but just remember that I will always love you forever. You're my whole world." She said and I smiled a bit.
"Y/n?"
"Yes my beautiful prince?"
"Cuddle?"
"Anything for my sweetie pie."
Y/n wrapped her arms firmly around me and I buried my head in her chest. No matter what I would never try to commit suicide again. I love her too much. Y/n kissed my lips and we lay on the bed kissing for a while before Y/n pulled the quilt over our bodies as we snuggled into each other.
"I love you." Y/n said before I fell into a deep peaceful sleep. And this time I didn't have a nightmare.
(My poor baby snowflake)
