The Heart Wants What It Wants. (𝐋𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐚 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭.)

- Eight.

Letitia's POV.
June 1st 2022.
6 months and 2 days until wedding.

I walked into Dominique's garage with only one thing on my mind. I had to end this little friendship we got going on. Personally I don't want to do anything that'll jeopardize this relationship so I have to leave the woman alone. I knocked on the garage door and a couple of seconds later she opened it. "Hi Tish. Come on in." She welcomed me as I stuffed my hands in my varsity jacket pockets and walked in.

"Look I came here to talk to you Dom." She sat on the counter and nodded her head to indicate she was listening. "You are a great friend. We've had great moments and a lot of memories but I don't think we can be friends anymore." I put my head down not prepared to hear what she has to say.

"I understand. I truly do." She chuckled lowly."But since this is it I might as well just go ahead and say it...Im in love with you Letitia." My eyes widened as she got up off the counter and slowly walked towards me while I looked back up. What? All I could hear is Cinnamons voice in my head saying I told you so. "I've loved you since I met you and damn it I can't help it." She was so close to me that I could smell her sweet perfume. My hands got the same feeling of being on pre-workout. It was an iching sensation that made my breath hitch. She looked up at me and tilted her head.

"No no, that's not right. You know I'm getting married soon that's not something I could have ar-" She crashed her lips into mine. I tried pushing her away but my hands landed on her waist. It was such a bittersweet moment. Like a burning building that obliterates everything and everyone around it. I pushed her back to the fridge as our lips collided in a slow sloppy kiss. My hand went up to her neck as the kiss began to intensify. Fuck what's happening. I couldn't bring myself to break it when her soft hands landed on my face. She started to pull off my jacket and that's when I came to realization of what was happening. The most loyal hearts are truly broken by betrayal. And in moment, I took hers and stomped on it.

My eyes widened as I pulled away wiping my lips with my thumb shaking my head. "I gotta go." My voice cracked as I opened the door and slammed it shut. I got in my car and sped off. I just broke it. I broke all of the promises, I broke the relationship and most of all I broke her heart. My eyes filled with tears of guilt not even realizing I was pulling up to my aunt Danai's house. She's the only one who would help me in some sort of way. I banged on her door and I heard her running down the stairs opening the door.

"Tish? Whats going on?" She pulled me in by my hands as I sobbed. "We're done Danai! She's not gonna want me anymore!" I whimpered as she took my into her arms. "I fucked up. I just fucked up so bad." My cries landed into the crook of her neck as she shushed me.

"Look at me Letitia. What did you do?" She grabbed my face with her hands and looked in my eyes. It was like she was reading me and my emotions and you could tell the only look I had on my face was "Guilt." My tears fell harder than rain in January in Texas as that word came out of her mouth. I closed my eyes as she sighed deeply.

"Well I'll say this. CHEATING is not a mistake.
If you're truly in love with someone, you will not be able to kiss someone else without tasting your loved ones tears stain your lips. Cheating is a choice, it's a choice you made because you obviously didn't care enough about your relationship." She sternly said while looking into my eyes. She sounded so much like my mom and the truth cut me harder than a knife.

When I asked Cinnamon to marry me, I asked because she's the one who was there for me through my madness. Through me bringing so many unfathomable into her life and she still chose me. I promised to never hurt her and I just did. That's what makes me feel so damn guilty.

"You be the woman I know you can be Letitia. This is something you might not want to hear but I'm only saying this because I love you. You have no right to drag her into this and stray her away from what she deserves the most..Love." Her words pieced my heart. I nodded and put my hands on hers. "You know what you have to do." (Play song)

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I sat on the couch and bit my nails as I awaited for Cinnamon to walk through the door. My face was stained with tears as I stared at the ground. I heard the door unlock as she walked in smiling. "Baby I got you're favorite snack! It was so hard to find and I got the last one so this lady was like you can't take that and in my head I was like bitch plea-" She was ranting and I couldn't help but lowly smile at what could possibly be our last moment together. My eyes watered again as I got up and walked to the kitchen. She turned around and looked at me as her smile faded.

"Oh no mama what's wrong?" She walked up to me and dried my tears. I felt like I couldn't talk. Like my voice was snatched from me the second she walked through the door. "W-we need to talk Cinnamon." Her face shifted from sympathetic to concerned. "You can tell me anything baby. What's going on." I grabbed her hands and kissed them as she looked in my eyes. It's something about her that she can read me just as much as Danai can. She shook her head slowly as if she was coming to a conclusion in her head. Like she already knew the answer.

"Cinnamon I- I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for breaking my promise." She slowly backed up from me as her eyes filled with tears. "You wouldn't Letitia. You couldn't right?" Her voice cracked as she covered her mouth. I nodded as her tears fell.

"Are you serious Letitia? You-" She cut herself off as she lifted up her shaky hand. "You watched me plead and beg for you to leave her alone.. you had me thinking I wasn't enough when that's all I ever wanted to be for you. Letitia I- I trusted you!" She yelled from the depths of her soul. I tried to walk towards her as she backed away.

"Baby I'm sorr-" She cut me off quickly. "Get out." She whispered. No this can't be it.. this can't be how it ends. "Cinnamon please." I pleaded as she sobbed. "I said LEAVE!" Her eyes turned to me as they were filled with brokenness as she walked towards the door opening it. I nodded my head while walking to the door. "Wait." She said as I stood outside of our apartment. She slid off her ring and placed it in my hands before slamming the door shut.

I fucked up. We are officially over.

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