The Heart Wants What It Wants. (𝐋𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐚 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭.)

- Eleven.

Letitia's POV.
July 2nd 2022.

I rolled over as I opened my eyes letting the bright sun shine on my face. I'm glad that I'm off because laying in this bed is the only thing I'm doing today. I picked up my phone and as I stared at my lock screen. It was a picture of Cinnamon smiling with the flowers I got for her birthday dinner. "I'm so sorry mama." I whispered as I kissed my phone. There was a knock on the door as I groaned lowly getting up and opening it. "We're going out today so get dressed really nice. I need heels and makeup." Danai said with a smile. I smacked my lips and crossed my arms. "Danai I don't wanna go anywhere today I just want to lay in bed." She tilted her head.

    "You're going with me conscious or unconscious. Be down in 30." She walked away as I rolled my eyes closing the door. I know she means well but I just don't wanna leave the bed. I put on a blue and white stripped oversized dress shirt and blue jeans as I slipped on my white heels. Grabbing my hand bag I walked downstairs as Danai walked out of her room.

    "You look beautiful Tish!" She gleamed which made me smile lowly.

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        Me and Danai had went to this beautiful restaurant. I mean they had Nina Simone playing and the food was just to die for. For the first time in a while , I could smile a little. "Auntie this is beautiful." I sipped my wine as I crossed my legs. "Ahh I knew you'd like it. You're just like your brother.. great expensive taste." I closed my eyes as I imagined my brother. I've been thinking about him a lot lately and I think it's time I pay him a visit. My mind wandered to what he would say to me if he knew what was going on in my life.

"Yeah." I brought my glass up to my lips again and finally opened my eyes. (Play song.)

I told my aunt to drop me off at the park me and my brother used to go to. My eyes looked at the flowers slowly swaying side to side. Some of them were wilting and some of them were blooming. Butterflies flew around as one landed on my finger. I giggled and watched in awe as it flew away. That let me know that my brothers spirit was here.

"Gosh brother I miss you." I sighed and sat down in the grass. I looked over across the field and seen a girl painting. She had on a brown tank top and a earth toned green skirt. Her hair was in butterfly locs but her skin tone was something I couldn't mistake. "Nah that can't be her. I must be mad." I said trying to let it go but of course curiosity got the best of me. I got up and began walking across the field to the girl.

"Cinnamon?" She turned around and looked at me. It indeed was my wife. Shes always been a gorgeous woman but the way she was looking at the moment screamed peaceful and beautiful.

"Hi.." She put down her paintbrush as she stood up dusting herself off.

"Hi my love." I whispered as she took my breath away. There was complete silence. It wasn't uncomfortable or weird silence but a peaceful serene silence.

"How've you been?" I asked as she twiddled her thumbs. "I've been..okay." She looked up at me and tilted her head. That look in her eyes were full of emotions I couldn't read but I know I seen that spark still there burning ever so brightly. I grabbed her hand as she closed her eyes. Softly I pulled her closer to me, taking her In to my embrace. She wrapped her arms around my waist and hugged me tight. "I miss you so much." She whispered.

We stood there for what seemed like minutes just holding each other. I pulled away and placed my hands on her cheeks. "Cinnamon I am so deeply disappointed in myself for hurting you the way I did. I hurt you as my wife,my friend and my lover and you didn't deserve that." I said with sincerity. "I'm not asking you to take me back but I can't live without you. You are my person and in an endless garden of flowers i will always pick you..." She put her hands on mine and nodded slowly.

"Words can't describe the ache that runs through my body when I'm missing you." She chuckled lowly. "I don't know how you got into my heart, but I do know that I don't want to leave you. You have to fix what you broken and that was trust Letitia. You had my heart in the palm of your hands and you broke it just as quick as you got it. But Letitia if I give that back to you, who says you wouldn't hurt it again." Her voice cracked as she shrugged with the last sentence.

"If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me Cinnamon Denise. Let me show you that.. please." I kissed her forehead as she inhaled deeply.

The sun set on us as we just held each other. This felt different.. like we were getting to know each other all over again. One thing about Cinnamon is she is not an easy woman which is what made me like her in the first place. I'm willing to work as hard as I can to keep this woman for the rest of my life.

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