The Second Chance

We don't know people

Dear diary: Today 12/17, I would like to continue the story after to met Amaya and Dahiane, like the friendship with them started a little bit more late, because if you remember diary how I said, our met up was something special, because the stuff that I told you already.

This day I would like to talk about my beliefs and how they made an impact in my life in that moment, inclusive a few months ago and actually is continuing to impact my life. And also, how some people that we believe are kind and gentle people, anyone can use mask themselves, and more if this is about to meet people on internet.

In that moment I learned how important it is to meet so well the people there on internet, is nothing compared to real life, is inclusive kinda difficult and you probably don't know nothing about how the people really is. 

After that day we had that conversation with Amaya, we took distance to talk, so then of that I remember how I did lost the contact with Annie too, so at that moment I had no contact in private messages. But for me that was not a problem, is something curious that I like to tell you Diary, is something I would like to check someday how much conversations with the people I had, because I love so much having long conversations about interesting things with the people, it's like to feel a connection each other to talk about the stuff you like it and the other too and feel that, it's kinda special and weird magician, but the difference is, I can feel that, and that unite the people, and make us the people who are, the differences, the similarities, etc.

2021 it was finished already, and I remember how i met kind and gentle people like the indian guy Marko, some norwegians like Martin, Patrik, Eric, and Axel. Please diary remember the last one at least for the next 2-3 chapters.

I was so innocent, so I thought everyone there were really nice people and I liked to talk with all of them, and suddenly one day, you see diary, like I told you before, I like to pray to the gods, I was pagan all my life, since when I was a little, my mother took me away from the all the Christianity stuff, she was and she is totally pagan, and her family (it says, my grandma, grandpa, etc.) wanted for her to convert to Christianity to her with all their strengths, they sent her to a christianity college, gave her christianity stuff, no results. She told me that the gods always were with her guiding the path she had to follow, and is continuing follow.

Since I was born, she "guided" me to speak, for the pagan path, I didn't pay attention to those stuff, inclusive I saw things inclusive you Diary that you are a book probably don't believe me, and I kept being skeptical I didn't know how to see that stuff then. You maybe ask what things? Well...

Once I saw how she was casting a spell at the middle of the night, I remember in that moment I lived in our old house, I didn't understand any of the words she was saying, but I remember so well how a fairy was in front of her, the form, that light was the only one shining in the whole house.

That was not the only time that I saw something like that, a few years later, I saw the same scenery, but that was not a fairy or fairies? That was like a lot of sparkles in the air or space. I have no explanation for those events.

Of course then she does mystical things, and nothing related with christianity things, like reiki, japanese beliefs, wiccan spells, celtic words, inclusive native words to communicate with the moon goddess.

What is my point and how does connect with all of this in the story? I decided to practice paganism and believe in the norse gods in that year, my mother also has believed in these gods since a long time, she told me how to communicate with them, the runes, by the way runes are similar respect to celtic runes, and more tips that I don't remember exactly now. It's like she is not such an expert in Norse beliefs but she know a bit. She gave me a norse necklace amulet that I love with all my heart and I don't think in take it away from me never, it's a symbol to protection and guide, is perfect to use when you feel lost.

My wrong, I sometimes don't use this when I go to sleep, because I feel how I can connect with the gods when I go to sleep at the night, I feel that I can speak the same language as them, you probably going to tell me that I'm crazy, I can promise that it's as real as the things you see every days outside, gods and magicians are in everywhere, hiding from us, you just need to believe to once in your life, and you see they are there for you, but that is not the most important, the important is feel and believe, and to heal yourself and the earth, they gave us a lot.

I felt sometimes at night, once before I had gone to sleep, I heard like metal a beating metallic thing in a rainy night, then I don't remember more, but everybody and the neighbourhood was in complete silence, you could just hear the rain falling. Then I saw a dream about thunders and strong rain, I was at a dark beach, with a big storm, and there was someone with fully black clothing

I've had some visions like that while I was sleeping with the amulet, but if I don't sleep with it, I have no dreams or I see totally different dreams.

The point is, I saw a dream once with the necklace, I don't remember what god was, but he told me to be cautious of the people I meet, not all of them are nice people and they dress with different mask around the world. I didn't pay attention to that advice, but that was an interesting dream. 

And after that dream, like a few weeks after Helga tells me someone did a terrible thing with someone in the server, like manipulation, said disgusting things, etc. We had a conversation about how sad was to think something about a person we thought was nice, but the reality sometimes deceives us, we really don't know how people are until the time passes and decided to show us how people are and how to treat with them, the nurnas are seeing us with the threads above the big tree.

That person wasn't the only one, then we got to know about some of them were being weird with some people, and in that moment, I started understanding some facts, how Amaya, Dahiane and Sylvannas (friend of Amaya and Dahiane that I knew after of them) was taking care about people, there exists dangerous people there on the internet, so you have to take care about who you talk to and the information you pass.

After learning some stuff and knowing some people, I knew with who to talk and who not, literal I didn't direct with people who showed their real gross face to me, just honest people or people who want to be friendly and gave healthy vibes we would say.

By the time I knew more people who soon would integrate with the Amaya gang, like Urdu, Bjorn, Mandy, Amelia and Michael.

The year was starting for me, March of 2022 to be more exactly, and I knew this year was going to be a year with so many challenges, and of course it was, but I would like to tell you all the challenges that I had during the year in the next chapter, I like too keep the secrets a little bit more in the time so when the moment comes will be epic, Don't worry diary, I understand myself, but more interesting, I don't understand how I talk with a paper? Curiosities of the life like I have in my life.

Hiii there, how you're doing? I hope you are okeyyyyy!!

Sorry for being absent these days, I've been a busy with the moving things

I hope you enjoy this chapter ^^!!!

(Special recognition to ****@Eviexi*****,thank you so much for help me to complete this chapter, I really appreciate it <3)