Interesting Feelings (Male Human x Male Furry)

First day of school

-Y/N POV-

I want to just shrivel up in a corner and die. Tomorrow is my first day of school and I'm just gonna get thrown in there, in the middle of the first semester. I hate this, this stupid nervousness for no goddamn reason. Why am I so afraid to meet new people.
(You burry your head in your pillow)

I didn't close an eye last night because of this bullshit, maybe some videos will distract me.

(You proceed to watch a couple of videos from your favourite content creators)

"This is not helping" I say out loud because I'm frustrated. Man if only I wasn't so socially awkward.

I go down to make myself some dinner, since my parents are too busy to be home 70% of the time, and when they're home they just sleep the whole time because they're exhausted. Not saying I don't like them for that, but I wish I could spend some more time with them when they're here. But whatever. I look inside the fridge and see three eggs on a trey. At least it's something. I get a pot and a pan, fill the pot up with water and put it on the stove, alongside with the pan. I wait until the water starts to boil and put some salt in the water. I put some spaghetti in the water and just let them cook. I wait about 5 minutes so the noodles are already halfway or more done, then I butter the pan and wait until the butter is melted. I crack open the three eggs and put them in a mug, afterwards I put the eggs in the pan and just let them fry. I grab a pot lid and put it on the lid, so the steam cooks the egg yolks so get warm quicker. After 2 more minutes I put the eggs on a plate and I drain the pasta and put them on the plate. Bon appetite! I really enjoy cooking and I have to do it everyday except on the week-end, where my father cooks for us, since my mother doesn't want to cook on her free days. 

I am still nervous but cooking helps me forget about anything around me and I focus on the food alone. but now that I'm done, my thoughts return back to me, and again I just want to burry myself in a pillow fort and never leave. As much as my tell myself that it's gonna be fine, I can't get the feeling of dread out of me. If I was a fur the situation would be different, but I'm scared that I wont be treated like a person because I'm human, because you know how teenagers are. I start to chuckle a bit, which is a tick, I start laughing when I'm extremely nervous, don't know why, but it does help for some reason. I eat my food and go back to my room. I hear the front door open and think it's my mother since my father went to work 4 hours ago. I yell: "Hi mom, I'll be in my room if you need anything." "Sure sweetie, did you already eat?" she replied. I answer: "Yes, there are no more eggs but we still have some noodles." "Well I guess I have to go shopping again tomorrow morning."  

I enter my room and put on some music and try to fall asleep.

I wake up at 2 in the morning, I sigh and go to the bathroom to do a little piss. Afterwards I go back to my room and try to fall back asleep. Keyword 'try', I always have this problem when I'm nervous and I wake up in the middle of the night. I just can't fall back asleep. I put on some Youtube videos and just watch until I fall back asleep Which surprisingly only took about an hour. 

My alarm rings at 7 in the morning and I jolt awake because I thought I've overslept. I look at the clock and sigh in relief, don't need to be late for my first day of school, although I wouldn't mind it. I go to the bathroom to take a shower, brush my teeth, use the toilet and get dressed. I am done by 7:40 and I go downstairs to grab a quick bite for breakfast. I grab a waffle and eat it while listening to music. At 7:50 I go outside to wait for the bus. Thankfully the bus stops at the school I go to, since this isn't a school bus, but a regular one. It's still filled with a bunch of pupils. Most of them are younger than me, but already I am getting few weird looks. I hate this, why did I have to be human, this whole situation would be so different. It takes about 30 minutes to get to my school, and my plan was to find a human at this school so I can try to feel a bit more comfortable. But to my surprise I couldn't see a single human there. I still have about 5 minutes until the bell rings. I looked where I had to go for my first class, and since the principle already told me how the school is build, so I had a rough idea where this class should be. I walk around the school yard for a bit, and I get a few looks, but not nearly as many as I thought, most people were just minding their own business which I greatly appreciated. The bell rang and I made my way to the class. In the hallway it was different than outside, since it was more cramped more people actually got to see me, and I swear I could've just died on the spot. I heard some of the younger pupils mock me which I didn't really care about. I care more about what my classmates think of me. I always keep a low profile but this time it was like standing in front of 3 spotlights all pointed directly at my face. I quickly made my way to my class and waited in front of the classroom, since the teacher isn't there. My first subject was maths, which I didn't hate but it by far not my favourite subject. Some other pupils stopped at the same door and one guy said: "I think you're at the wrong door monkey." Ouch. "No I'm not, I'm new here, and my schedule says this is the class I have to." They chuckled a bit, probably because I didn't refute the insult he threw at me. But I don't want to make a big deal out of it. The more people forget I exist the better.