UNBELONGING

chapter 6

Time is a storm in which we are all lost in {William Carlos Williams}.

Time was merely a notion here , with the room being pitch black you can hardly know if time was moving and if so, how fast . They repeated shots of wolfs-bane was the only constant, it felt numb like I was merely exiting noting more , I could hear voices echoing to me , laughing and mocking my state I was weak , undeserving of anything , my parent died for nothing , I killed them , am at fault ,at first I tired fighting the voices , the rouges killed my parent not me I was innocent, I did noting , but that was it exactly I did noting. everybody around me dies am a killer. Joyce I injured her am out of control I need to be put down I need to end this pathetic existence I call life it for the benefit of the pack if am no longer in the picture if I leave and I don't bug them. so I tired, countless slits to my wrist , but it was all futile. someone always ended up saving my life , a cut to d wrist , couldn't even harm a pup , our high healing rate would stop the bleeding and mend the wounds before any actual damage could be done , so i used silver . i shaped the silver nail that was lodge at the end of the wall , till it was sharp enough,then i cut myself , but was saved again , and again . so I gave up on living till he came . I remember it being cold when I heard his voice it was brad THE ALPHA.

please help me i screamed , i just want this to stop , kill me if you will , but just make this silence stop , please . shhhh as long as you behave i would take you away from hear , there's a reward for good behavior . so i behaved and he came to visit , i don't know how often but he did and i was grateful , he cared for me , even if i was out of control.

Hey Hanna how are you coping he asked, I'm doing just fine but I don't understand what am I doing here ,what this place ,what happen here, where is Joyce, Hmm relax first off may I sit he said gesturing towards the small bed kept by the Conner , sure knock yourself out , well do you remember attacking Joyce ,his voice was like a trigger, memories came rushing in, I was shocked I did hurt her, I am a danger to people around me. do you remember your training when you attack that young man almost killing him , so I decided it was in the best interest of everyone if you were sent here , this is a camp establish for rehabilitating wolfs.

Cause I didn't want anyone to panic no one knows you are here all there think is that you are out of the pack for further train and if it is fine by you I would like to keep it that way he said smiling , and remember there's a reward for good behavior. I took a deep breath this is the most clear headed I have been since what felt like forever, releasing the breath I was holding OK I agree , how is Joyce ,when do I get to leave here ? Oh well she is fine ,about leaving , that why am here I heard you stated cutting again, looking away from him I answered yes I did , the voices are everywhere i just needed some shes dangerous, my wolf , she wants me to kill , and the only time she stops is when there silver lodge in my skin, I'm sorry i don't know how else to control her .I said has tears fell from my eyes,Hanna don't you see the problem here you just need to suppress your wolf pending when you find your chosen mate to transfer you alpha aura to him you know women her not equipped to be alpha's. suppress how? well with wolf bane.

what are you talking about? little shot of wolf bane enough to mute your wolf but not enough to knock you out or curse harm just the right amount , take your time to think about it was all he said has is footstep slowly faded away.stop I'm sorry please wait would i be able to leave here if i agree to the shots ?.

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Are you sure you are fine, you look off. For the hundred time Joyce am fine I just miss you a lot I said smiling , so you don't need the pack doctor , yes I don't

I can't feel it , feel what? you know , your aura ,your wolf presence ,I can feel her but not her power ,you feel like an omega ,and that not normal you have been that way since you came back form your training, are you sure you are fine?

talk to me would you , Joyce said pulling Hanna down to sit .

And after hours of explain that the wolf bane was not going to kill me but help me , that I found this as a win -win solution for us all, Joyce finally looked at me a smiled saying I hope you are truly happy ? Yes Joyce I am perfectly happy and I love you.

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