Jerk || Lee taeyong

seveteen

taeyongs point of view
this chapter may upset viewers

i walked in to a silent apartment with nothing but cold air and furniture. yes, it was lonely but this is how i learned to survive. my parents were taken away from me when i was just a teen leaving me with the only family i had left, my gang members. my dad was at the top with us being the most wealthiest and respected gang in south korea.

sometimes i just wonder if i just ended it all. all this pain and suffering i endured, with one simple press of the trigger everything will be over. easier said than done isn't it? i'm not crying no, crying is a weakness. i'll do it quick with no regret or hesitation.

my hands wandered down to my hip where my gun was located and loaded. the cold feeling my fingers felt as they wrapped around the body of the gun. i bit my lip get this over with i whipped out the weapon with a dull face. although i was about to end it why did a wave of sadness overwhelm me? was i really about leave everyone behind?

i gulped though my throat was dry. "go on, i was waiting" i froze but not from fear but from shock, what do i do? "who the fuck are you?!" i yelled. i pointed my gun at it and shot without another thought.

"ah!" he cried out but no wound in sight. my legs felt numb "you think i wouldn't come prepared?" a scoff echoed through my cold apartment. i couldn't see his face i had no idea who the fuck this was. just like that the thing pulled out a gun and with no hesitation he shot. "this is just a warning, taeyong."

shit. i look up, through long pieces of my hair i desperately needed to cut were covering my sight. i didn't let my guard down, not once. but how did this thing escape? now i was curious.

i know if i followed this thing it's a trap but i couldn't help it. i ran out of my door not even bothering to close it. yellow head lights beamed into my sight before i heard the screech of the car speed off "fuck."

i hopped into my car and didn't bother to warm up my car, i didn't have time for it. as I tailed the car that was swerving in front of me I noticed it was going into the city. there was so much wrong with this, it was so sketchy. without much thought i put jaehyuns digits onto the screen of my car.

"hey taeyongie~" jaehyun cooed, probably kicking his feet.

"i need you to get a hold of taeil and jungwoo. tell them to shut off the street lights on pearl street."

"it's something wrong?!" suddenly switching his mood from a goofy bestie to a concerned right hand man.

"yes. i'll explain more later just leave this up to me, kay?" my piercing gaze was strong, i never let anything distract me. i took after my father who was just as precise as me. the lights shut off just like i ordered which caused the ends of my lips to curve up in satisfaction.

as soon as i got close enough something popped up in the middle of the road. wait, that's not a thing it was a person. i stopped my car in panic "fuck!"

my heart felt as it was being torn out of my body, being stomped on, i lost it.
i froze, the immense pain i thought i was used to suddenly overwhelmed me. it overcame me. my hands reached the top of my head, tugging onto my hair.

i didn't want to cry but here i was... sobbing like a newborn. why couldn't i keep it in? i always was able to.

knock. shit i forgot. i lifted my head up to see who the person i almost killed was. locking of the glass of my car window. "hey! you bastard you almost hit me!" that voice was familiar, too familiar. i wiped my eyes and focused my vision, it was nabi.

without a second thought i stepped on the gas and sped off. she couldn't see me like this, vulnerable and confused. another incoming call appeared on my cars screen from jaehyun but i ignored it.

i drove to the base which was 30 minutes out of the city. i liked how hidden it was and how comforting; it was my safe spot. i drove there in silence with the only thing i can think about was how embarrassed i was to be caught by her.

i hope she didn't notice me. after a uncomfortable long ride, i parked in front of the base. the lights were on like usual but it seemed like people were in there. fuck i cursed myself out and pulled out my cell to check if i looked decent enough.

"taeyong!" jaehyun ran over as soon as the door opened.

"were you worried?" i pouted as i pinched his bread soft cheeks.

"can you guys not." i watched as haechan walked out of the kitchen with a bag of freshly popped popcorn.

i'm guessing everyone's probably here. i sighed before pushing jaehyun aside. "i'll be back guys, save some of that popcorn for me" i waved back as i walked to my office.

only jaehyun really knew everything about my mental state. i'm too ashamed to even admit that i cry. but with jaehyun, he's been with me ever since i lost my parents. i mean everyone was but jaehyun was different. he knew about my feelings for her and our relationship.

i sighed once again, it seemed like that's the only thing i knew how to do in the moment. i felt hopeless and lost. but i knew i still had a job to do.

i pulled out my phone and dialed the leader in control of manhattan, new york. he was young, yes, but don't underestimate his abilities. he's quick and strong, and quite handsome. he was good at his work and that's why i needed him here.

"muaha"

A/N
IVE BEEN HELLA BUSY i'm sorry y'all but i will try to redeem myself