Legacy

THREE

Chapter Three: I love a good cat fight.

L U C A S

"Fuck."

The curse left my lips slightly slurred and louder than I wanted them to. Although, it was just a simple word that left my mouth countless times before, it was enough for Xander to take the blunt from my hand.

I didn't protest to it nor did I really care that he was calling an end to my high. Any more and I would've said somethings that I wasn't necessarily ready to deal with the consequences of.

I rarely cared for my actions, but that was because I was the only one having to deal with the consequences that came along with them. Although, if I said what I wanted to now then I wouldn't be the only person in trouble.

Delaney would join me in the chaos, but I doubted that I would be the only one to blame for that. She was the reason why I was like this right now and she was oblivious to the fact. She was ignorantly passing her time in school probably not even sparing me a second thought.

While she consumed all of mine.

"This isn't fair." I gripped onto the roots of my hair, leaning forward so Xander or Everest couldn't see my face. I knew they were looking back at me now. I knew they were concerned and have been since I asked to leave the school after talking to her.

I never asked to leave. I never got high. I never lost control like this. I never risked my image like I did this morning. I never got caught with a girl in public.

She got me doing things I never did.

"What's not fair?"

She didn't recognise my voice. She doesn't have these thoughts that I have. That she can just live in that ignorant bliss that I was living in before she spoke this morning. The bliss in where we didn't know each other. That we just lived in cassette tapes and weren't more than comforting voices to one another.

Now I knew her name. I knew what she looked like. I knew how she held herself and could stand up for herself. Delaney. Her name, the name I've been trying to figure out for years now just slipped from her tongue without a second thought of who she was telling it to.

Her name nearly fell from my lips in response to Everest's question, but I pressed my lips together knowing that if it did there would only be more questions to follow. They both wanted to know who she was, but I knew they didn't care for that right now.

They just wanted me back to normal, but I genuinely didn't know how to act normal right now. I couldn't get myself together, not when I finally know her. That I know that I can see her and hear her whenever I wanted right now. That I didn't have to just listen to her through tapes.

"You alright, dude?"

A shaky breath left my lips and I nodded, sitting up slowly and leaning back into the red leather seats of Xander's car. "Yeah. Yeah, I'm alright."

I didn't miss them glancing at one another at my answer. It was an obvious lie, but it was the only answer they were getting from me right now. They knew about my tapes, but I never let them listen to them nor did I talk about them. There was no way they knew that she was her unless I told them.

My bottom lip folded into my mouth stopping another string of curses from leaving. I didn't want to think about this. I didn't want to deal with this. I didn't know how to deal with it because obviously getting high wasn't a solution nor was it helping me formulate one.

"Dude, I'm going to be completely honest with you right now," Xander told me, his eyes meeting my bloodshot ones, "you're not okay."

"Thanks Xan," I muttered, "You'd make a great Sherlock Homes."