see you later

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dear reader,

i still cannot believe that i will be here again. what more, being able to be at my second time finishing an epistolary-styled novel.

there were midnights that i could feel that i have to do something, that i was not at ease, that i cannot calm myself--i have to do something. and everytime these kinds of nights and midnights happen, i just knew that writing has been, will always be, the key, in keeping my soul calm and at peace, and at ease.

it’s been about ten months since i started writing ao and adi’s, about 7 months since i finished their story. and i am just drafting this, this now, some months later after storing them at my quote drafts unquote.

i cannot help but to question myself, honestly. was i happy when i was crafting their story? because aowen has been nothing but light and all fun--for me, to me. she became a comfort character that i found, in an instant. i just can feel that through ao and adi's that i was, maybe, happy, at comfort, at ease during those days that i was making them to life.

and it has always been my motivation, to keep on writing, to finish what i’ve started. that their story, even just a small chunk of their lives--it has to be told, unfold.

and i do hope that they made you happy too. made you at ease, when something's not really easy in life. that deep within see you later, there is something, even the smallest thing, that could make you feel something. even a tinge, a hope, too, to feel something--a positive emotion, i could wish.

maybe another moment to share, i just accepted, maybe or maybe not, that i have failed something in life, in myself. and maybe, it was true, it could be true, that i were just redirected, that there were also souls like me, redirected, to a clearer and smoother path, to where i could be okay, at the same time, while patching up the pieces where i thought i failed. because, maybe, maybe it was okay. maybe this could make me okay.

and i hope you would be okay too. because no matter how cliche it could be, i wish nothing but for people to be always okay. and fine. and happy. and totally to be in their kinds of at ease. to feel like to be always, always at home.

i may or may not post bo and cord’s chunks of lives, their stories. but to me, their alive. they have stories too, to be told. so, see you?

matters | links of things:

• credit section gdocs’ link for the photos used: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1wYcxe7g7_2v1N84qUQTWnjhelcdUg-JjMPa5z5D1SDo

• pinterest board link for the photos used: https://www.pinterest.ph/biglaan_/see-you-later/

*book cover artwork by em.

twitter, pinterest profile, telegram contact:
@biglaan_

thank you so much for being able to see us, ao and adi, and markus and pearlie, and bo and co.

to you, see you later.

best,
biglaan_

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