I repeated over and over. I repeated what I was going to say to Teddy. Then I texted it
Me-Teddy we need to talk. (What did I do!!!!)
Teddy-I know. Do you want to meet up some place. What about the park that you love.
Me-I will meet you there.
Now I don't know what I really did. What if I can't stop crying when I see him? Or what if we don't figure things out by the time I get there. I have to. I have to. If I don't I will never know the true reason why he did it. Why he slept with Allison.
2 hours later.
"We really need to talk about what happened here.", I said to teddy who looks like he is about to cry.
"I know, I can explain everything. Just give me a minute.", he said.
"Explain every detail. What happened, how did it happen, why did it happen. Or I'm gone for good!", I was about screaming and crying at this point.
"Well I don't know how it really happened, I just know that it happened. I did not mean for it to happen. She was just crying and I-------".
"You went to her while she was crying!!! That's like any girls cry for help. I can't believe you would do that. You a stupid idiotic a**hole!". (Pardon my French but I was upset.)
"I know I realized it after it was done."
"Realized what?", I said trying to calm down.
"Realized she was trying to hurt you by sleeping with me.", he said with a guilty look on his face.
"Why? Why would she do that?", I could not stop repeating that. That's when we sat down and he explained everything. At the end we got up and hugged and kissed. Now we are fixed, but why do I still have that feeling like this is only the start of a huge mess that is going to make me broken permanently? Why?
