The Goal is Love!

Who's up Next?

At this point I'm over big daddy and young tender. I can't keep doing this. I know it may seem like all I want is sex but it isn't. If it was, I would get in young tenders rotation and wait my turn or fuck some of these clowns I fucked before who's begging to fuck me on a daily. I'm tired of fucking. I want love! I want someone to genuinely love me for me. I want someone to appreciate all that I have to give. I want someone to return the same energy I'm giving out. Is there anyone out here in the world ready for real love or is it just me? I am determined to find someone to make me their wife. I'm so tired of playing games with these fools but something in me is telling me not to give up, not to give up on love. I have to convince myself of that everyday because its so easy to say fuck it and shut down. I'm tired of my feeling's getting hurt. I'm tired of getting the short end of the stick every time I give someone a chance. It was time to give my attention to something new.

Hello texas! Nice to meet you.

Everyday I was on live on tiktok talking to people expressing my feelings, letting them know what type of relationship I wanted. I made it clear I want love and marriage. I talked to a guy on my live and he started asking me all these questions about goals and dreams I wanted to accomplish and what I had to bring to the table. I was interested in talking to him a little bit more so I added him back. He later slid in my dm and he told me he wanted to support my business. Clearly he didn't wear eyelashes but if I promised to buy myself four pair and send him a picture in them he would send me the money. I was down, you know I'm a natural born hustler I was always ready to make a coin. I asked him for his number so I can send him the pictures and he sent it. We talked on the phone daily after that. I told him all about me and my past and what I wanted my future to turn out to be and he was on the same page. He was a single father of two and ready to find a wife and a mother for his kids. I was ready to sign up. I enjoyed the conversations we had. It felt good to connect with someone on an intellectual and spiritual level. I was ready to be step momma y'all . I wanted to see what Texas had in store for me. He said I can be a housewife too! Honey that was like music to my ears. I'm tired of being independent. I want to be catered too. Texas took it slow we talked about future goals but what was the right now plan? What can Texas do for me right now to keep my attention and make me want to work towards moving and starting a new life. He was a good friend but I wasn't getting enough pressure. He wasn't doing enough to keep my attention and that was a problem for me.