when I saw him.

Part 3

I am lying on my bed waiting for myself to get up and change. But something in me couldn't get myself to do it, there are sometimes days like I don't wanna do anything and there are some days where I don't know why I'm sad so when someone asks me that question I don't know how to respond to them because no one understands me.

I finally decide to get up and get changed to go to school, because honestly id rather be at school than be at home. Being at home just feels suffocating and ever since my dad started acting like this it has become draining. ANYWHERE is better than home

Last night I woke up to glass being thrown around the living room but I didn't pay any mind since I already knew it was him, Him again with his drugs. He scares me, He probably always will scare me. Me and my dad will never have a proper relationship, I Hate him.

But he is still my dad.

I end up leaving the room to go to the kitchen but I end up just eating a small piece of a croissant, I don't feel that hungry. I go to Anaya's room to remind her that I'm leaving for school and say my goodbyes and see you later.

I leave the house walking to the car, I put my bag in the passenger seat and i drive away from the Driveway. I put on some music on my way to school to at least try to enlighten my mood. I park my car and I start walking inside of school walking to the lockers.

Walking to my first class of the day I say hey to Josiah, and we walk into class sitting together.

You alright? Josiah asks. I reply to him saying that I'm fine, but he knows I'm not he just doesn't force it out of me.

Ok, you can always tell me anything Liyah, and ill always be here for you any time of day, always. he says, yea I know Josiah just not right now, and he nods at me.

The day passed by and it was already time for lunch, as usual, I end up leaving campus but I did end up coming back to school THIS time just 10 minutes late to class.

Walking through the halls, I see my ex staring at me as always, but this time it didn't bother me, I was too tired to care, mentally drained.

School ended and I ended up going to the mall to shop for some new clothes to take my mind off of some things but I saw Josiah and Isaiah together, again. I went to go say hi thinking I'll go with my day and go home since it was Friday and I just wanted to take a long nap, but no I ended up leaving the mall with them and had a whole hot box session with them both.

It felt good, I felt at peace again. I haven't felt that in a while and I kind of forgot how it felt like since it's been a long ass time since I felt at peace and really okay.

Anaya had to end up getting an uber and driving me home since I was not in a state of mind but as soon as I went home and touched that bed. I  was knocked tf out and exhausted.

I finally updated after a long ass time but I'm back, I think LMAO

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