Bookstore boy (phan)

Chapter 9

Umm, I'm sorry it's been a million years since my last chapter. I've been super busy and I'm going through a tough time, sorry <3

Phils POV

Will he's amazing, I guess.

He's everything I want in a guy, he's just not the guy I want it from. He's funny, kind, goodlooking and really sweet.
But he'll never be as perfect as Dan...

Dan is all of those things plus and more, except for the fact that he doesn't love me.
Dan is just... damn!

He's just gone for his blood tests and I don't know if he still wants to live with me, he said that he defiantly doesn't want to go back to living with Rosa but my apartment is far too small for the both of us.

We could always move into a big shared house with some other guys our age...
That is if Dan still even wants to live with me.

Dans POV

I've just finished my blood tests, I'm free to go and if there's any problems with the tests they'll phone me.

I couldn't face going back to see Phil so I decided to take a walk, letting my legs carry me wherever.

After a few minutes of walking I end up in the newborns department, at the thought of my unborn child I start to tear up, the nurse lets me in with no questions asked. I can see all the faces of the tiny babies and their mothers.
All the quiet cries and giggles.

Sometimes I forget how amazing children are... Even if I'm gay I would love children, of course I could adopt but it's not the same as your own flesh and blood.

My child is one of the reasons I feel I should go back to Rosa, even if I don't love her that child doesn't deserve not to have two parents.

I don't believe the gender of the parents matter, a child just needs two people to love it.

Ugh, I should go back to Phil now, I truly love him.
But of course he doesn't love me...

He could have absolutely anyone, male or female.

I wander back to the ward I'm on and look at Phil, he's fallen asleep again in the chair, he looks at peace when he's sleeping. My little ray of sunshine.

'Philly wake up' I whisper to him, 'wakey wakey you silly munchkin'

He just makes a quiet grunt of protest in reply and rolls over slightly, so I tap his shoulder.
'No Dan I'm not giving you my iced tea!' He mutters under his breath, aww he's dreaming about me!
Iced tea isn't exactly romantic but he's still dreaming about me.

I eventually have to wake him up instead of just watching him sleep, wait that sounds a bit Edward Cullenish... I'm not a vampire pedo, I swear!

I give him a firm tap on the head and Phil jolts awake, 'Did you enjoy your iced tea Philly?' I giggle sarcastically

'No! You kept trying to steal it' he moans at me, he really is an adorable ray of sunshine.

'Well while you were dreaming about iced tea, I was getting my bloods done and now I'm free to go' I say taking his hand and pulling him off the chair.

'So now we go for that...' Phil pauses slightly and takes a breath of air, 'skinny mocha chai tea, with foam! That we missed out on' he really dramatises his voice using his typical white girl accent.

Phil always knows how to make me laugh...

I gather the small suitcase of things Phil brought to the hospital for me once we found out I would be staying for a while, he's such a good friend... that's all, a friend.

Because no matter how much I love him, he will always think of me as just a friend. And I'll just have to make do with that.

I pick up my small suitcase and carry it out to Phil who's leaning against a pole outside the hospital doors, he has such long legs. He's so tall and beautiful.

'Right you silly turnip, let's go get some coffee!' Phil says taking the suitcase out of my hand and carrying it for me, he's such a gentleman.

***

'Wow this Frappuccino is really nice, Dan. Seriously try some' Phil exclaims to be trying to poke his straw into my mouth.

'No Phil' I chuckle, 'I've got my own perfectly nice Frappuccino right here' I say slurping my creamy drink.
Some cream dotting onto my nose.

'Hey Dan' Phil says quietly,
'What Phil?' I reply seeing him grinning,

He leans into me and looks deep in my eyes, I can feel his heat as his body is inches away from mine.
He brings his hand up to the side of my face and uses his thumb to wipe away the cream on my nose and whispers,
'My silly turnip'

I honestly thought he was going to kiss me...

I wish he would.

We both finish our drinks and head back to Phils flat in silence.

***

After what must have been 3 or more hours of playing Mario Kart me and Phil had curled up together on the sofa under a few blankets.

His body heat keeping me warm with my head on his chest so I could hear the steady beating of his heart.

The heart I so longed to have as my own...

My eyes fluttered closed as Phil wrapped his strong arms around me and I could smell his Lynx and his shampoo, he makes me feel so warm and safe.

So I fell asleep thinking of Phil, all curled up in his arms.

I'm so sorry for not updating! I'm a terrible person... well crap. I hope you guys don't hate me for not updating but honestly I'm a lazy git.

Love you, my phamily xx <3