Eric POV
i just ended things with Liza and Carli and I was currently at Topin's spot letting her down gently. " I hope you can understand that our relationship cannot continue on outside of friendly interactions" i say and Topin smiles and nodded. " so you do love her" she asked and I nodded. " yeah T I do, and I can't carry on hurting her, and if she found out it'll hurt her" I say. This causes Topin to rub my back, she was the only one that I rocked with enough to be friendly with her, I trust myself enough to not be sexual with Topin, because it wasn't always sexual, it was turned into a friends with benefits situation one drunken night a couple months ago. " so what's re you gonna do now that you're a one woman guy?" She asks and I sighed. " I'm gonna have to tell her, come clean, and deal with what happens afterwards" my truth was gone set me free and however she reacted I was gonna have to deal with it.
Blue POV
The past two weeks have been amazing. I begin attending LGU in a month, I'm a happily married woman, I visit my parents and in-laws on a regular and Erica and my friends are so much fun to be around. Currently I was in bed about to go to sleep. I haven't seen my husband all day but I assumed it was because of work so I didn't question it. " Blue" I hear my name so I look up from my book. Eric looked so good, he must have just got home. " I need to talk to you about something" he says to me coming to sit on the edge of the bed. Putting my book down I crawl and sit next to him. " what's wrong" I asked touching his shoulder, something was bothering him heavily.
" I've grown to love you so much Blue" he says and takes a pause as I sit back a bit. " which is why I must confess something, there was someone else, three other someone else's, and I made the conscious decision to remain friends with one of them" he says slowly. My smile fell as he said this, he had three side pieces this whole time. Wait, so was it him that I saw in the house and not Paris. " you actually caught me one time with Liza and Paris took the blame for it because you thought it was him, but I don't wanna be with them, and I don't want to ruin our marriage anymore than I have and I understand that I've hurt you, so I can't keep it in anymore, I know you already suspected something was up, so I wanted you to hear it from me, because I made everyone else keep quiet about it" his breakdown just got progressively worse as he explained his affairs.
So others knew and smiled in my face about it. How long had these affairs been carrying on, did he love them? " how long?" I found myself asking while staring at the wall. " about two months after we signed the papers" he said and I sucked in air. Okay we didn't really know each other then, we talked maybe twice a week if he wasn't busy. Technically they were in the picture at the same time as me. " do you love them?" He shakes his head no. " no, no I don't, I mean one a friend but I never saw it going further than casual sex" he says, I'm guessing he's talking about the same one he kept a friendship with.
" did they mean anything outside of friendship?" He shakes his head no. " just Topin" he confirms her name. " and the other two?" He shakes his head no. " no, they were good for sex and they would do runs but that's about it" I nodded slowly. I know how it felt. I understood my mom and her crying nights, trying to keep it together because she knew I was home, or in the house playing somewhere. " god Eric" I say getting out the bed. Really taking in his confession hoping that he was yell 'Sike' any moment and say it was a joke made in poor taste. He didn't, he was serious. " you really carried out three affairs on me?" I asked holding back tears? " so what does that make me?" I asked holding up my hand which my wedding ring rested on. " why even marry me?" I asked him as he just looked at me.
" I'm sorry" he says and I nodded. I mean he did have to actually be sorry, I mean he was technically caught a couple weeks ago but he fessed up himself, he wasn't defensive, he was owning up to what he did. " is one of them blackmailing you? Is that why you're telling me this?" I asked and he shook his head no. " no, I just, just didn't want to do wrong anymore, I want to change" he says and I nodded wiping my tears. " B please don't cry" I pulled back as he stood up reaching for me. The pain in my chest was tight and it felt like a lump in my throat. " Eric" I gasped when he touched me anyways and the tears kept flowing. " I'm so sorry" he says wiping my tears. I gasped feeling his arms wraps around me. " please don't touch me" I choke out and he steps back. " did you use protection each time?" I asked and he paused. " I may have slipped up with Carli but only twice, other than that yes, yes I used protection" he says and I cover my mouth. He made sure he used protection with me though.
I sighed shaking my head at him. " I'm sorry Blue" I nodded holding my head. It felt like the room was spinning. It felt like I needed air as I began breathing through my mouth. " Blue, are you okay?" He asked but I pushed him away beating on his chest to get him to back up from me. " stop, breath, breathe B you having a panic attack please just calm down" his voice was fading and I fell to my knees. I never thought I'd experience being cheated on, then again it was before we really knew each other and he confessed because he wanted to end it, he was taking accountability and he saw the signs of me having a panic attack. I also understood why my mom stayed, she loves my dad, and I've fallen in love with Eric. I'm hoping we can work through this, Eric had a choice, he could have kept the affairs going and not said shit, or he could have ended it and came clean, he went with the latter, that was his choice, a choice of love.
