Unusual Type of (Fuck) Love

36

I decided to pick up the soup and look for her only to see her sleeping on the sofa. God what is she doing here?

I put down the bowl on the table before trying to pick her up but she woke up before I was even able to lift her

"Hey... why are you sleeping here? Mananakit likod mo dito..."

"I... I just thought you guys need space... did you taste the soup?" Antok na sambit niya

"Not yet... come on I'll bring you upstairs..."

"No..." sambit niya sabay upo

"Are you sure you're okay?"

"I'm not..."

"Why?"

"Because... I can't do anything... I can't do anything to ease both your pains... I... I can't even give you the comfort that you need..."

"Hey... Veronica... don't think that"

"But it's true... y-you don't see me as someone you can be vulnerable with... and I respect that but... I wanted to ease your pain too... I wanted to... to lighten you guys up too..."

"Veronica..."

"I... I know I don't have any right... k-kasi kayo naman yung mag-asawa sa sitwasyon natin but... I... I just felt like... ahh, nevermind me... maybe it's pregnancy things. Sorry." Sambit niya wiping her tears... making me see her hands full of bandages

"Veronica what the fck? Did you injure yourself?!" Tarantang sambit ko checking her fingers

"It's nothing" pag-iwas niya ng kamay niya saken... "you didn't even want what I cooked anyways..."

"Baby..."

"I'll head up to Pengpeng's room" sambit niya as she stood up but I held her hand

"I'll leave you guys alone don't worry"

"Don't" pagpigil ko na agad sa kanya before leaning on her side stomach

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry for making you feel that way..."

"I understand"

"No. You should be involved... you should be able to see me vulnerable... I... I was the problem..."

"Orion.."

"I just don't want you to think that I'm getting tired... gusto ko isipin niyo na kaya ko... kaya ko to lahat..."

"You're not a superhero Orion... tao ka pa rin... people have limits" sambit niya sitting back down beside me

"I... I forgot that one..." sambit ko na lang playing with her injured hands before she pulled me into a hug making me tear up.

Never knew I needed that until I got one...  

Veronica's PoV

I really felt so childish wanting to know my position in the relationship but it felt so surreal that he's actually crying on me right now.

It made me feel that I belong... that he sees me as someone more than the bearer of their child.

When he calmed down he immediately checked my hands.

"You should've called me to help you..."

"Buntis lang ako hindi ako baldado Orion... and besides... I know you guys needed your time alone"

"I'm sorry..." sambit niya kissing my hands but I just cupped his face afterwards and wiped his tears.

"It's okay... just... don't let yourself think that you can't be... down. It's okay to feel yourself tired and not okay... it's normal... I don't want to see you break down and explode all at once... i-it hurts me more to see you guys keep it to yourself and all I can do is... watch"

"Thank you Veronica..."

"I know I'm a pain to you myself... kaya nga hinayaan ko kayo mag-isa..."

"You're not a pain, baby. Stop saying that"

"I know I am. Pregnancy is making me difficult to deal with. I know that. At alam ko din mas nahihirapan ka"

"Baby..."

"Just... don't do that again, please? Don't keep it all to yourself... I'm here... I'm not leaving you..."

"I know that. Thank you, baby" sambit niya kissing my forehead

"I love you..."

"I love you too" sambit niya kissing me on the lips this time

"Akala ko ayaw mo nang banggitin yan kanina..."

"What?"

"I know you were awake... I told you I love you earlier and at least expected a response but there's nothing..."

"Sorry... things just clouded my head... I love you, okay?"

I leaned on him as I smile hearing him say those words.