Find Me Yet? - Shane X Y/N - SDV - Fem

Chapter 3 - Already missing this feeling

(TW:This contains puking, overdose, cigarettes, intimacy, cuts, scars and cussing.)
(FYI-my deepest apologies for not posting often, this chapter will be a tad bit shorter! sorry :/)
They are both 14.
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Already missing this feeling

It was 4 o'clock in the morning, the room lit up and I looked down at my phone.

'Happy birthday Y/N!' from 'Shay<3' at 4:00 A.M.

I stared at the screen for a second.

'The big 14, I still can't believe you're older than me, by like a couple months though, lol. We are both gonna be in highschool next year, it's crazy how time flies!'from 'Shay<3' at 4:02 A.M.

'Hello?' from 'Shay<3' at 4:06 A.M.

I continued to sit there, zoning out.

'I don't think I'm gonna make it.' sent at 4:07 A.M.

I began to shake vigorously, I quickly stumbled off my bed and ran to the bathroom, closing the door behind me and locking it. I grabbed the rim of the toilet and shoved two fingers up my throat. I began to gag before I vomited. I felt queasy as I lifted my head up, puke coating the rim of my mouth. The room spun around me as I heard ringing come from my bedroom.

I quickly flushed the toilet and wiped my mouth, looking at myself in the mirror. Cuts scattered across my jaw and along the left side of my neck.

I ran the sink with cold water, washing my hands as my vision blurred, I dizzily walked back to my room. grabbing the corner of my bed and watching my phone Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz. "Caller Id, Shay<3"

I grabbed the phone and checked the texts.

'What do you mean Y/N?' sent at 4:07 A.M.

'Are you ok?' sent at 4:07 A.M.

'Please answer my calls...' sent at 4:09 A.M.

My eyes teared up as I listened to the buzzing of the phone, I looked over at it one last time and picked it up.

"I overdosed Shane..." I whimpered "I'm scared."

"Fuck- I- Are you ok? You need to call 911 Y/N. I'll do it for you if you can't. How many did you take?"

"I can't remember." I groaned, pain growing in my stomach.

"My mother is gonna be mad." I cried, tears running down my cheeks.

"It's fine, just please let me deal with her. I'm coming over now and I'm about to call the ambulance, please hang in there for me Y/N, Please." I heard his voice break.

"I can't lose you."

Several Months Later

I looked into the crystal waters as his voice echoed through the trees, slowly putting my hair up into a bun, using the water as a mirror to adjust its form. My scars were fading into a light pink and were barely noticeable. I soon felt his warm embrace around my waist, the sweetness of his voice tickled my heart, But not enough to wash over the bitterness of the past.

"I love you so~" He said, swinging our bodies back and forth in unison. I watched as the smoke of my cigarette lingered towards him, dawdling him. He stopped singing and slowly shifted around me, lifting me up onto the boulder we sat on just a year before.

"Smoking kills your lungs Y/N" He said, smiling, grabbing the cigarette out of my mouth. "I may be stupid, but we learned this in the 5th grade." He said, his eyes locking with mine. I watched as he put it out, tossing it into the small river that entangled the forest we sat in.

"I have more where that came from." I said hesitantly, gripping onto my small jean pocket that failed to keep anything inside of it. I watched as his face faded, quickly pinning me down on the rock, grabbing both of my hands and positioning them above my own head. I watched as his hand slowly met my pocket, grabbing the pack.

"No! That's cheating!" I said, stuttering, attempting to pull my hands down to hide my obviously flabbergasted face.

"Not in my book!" He said, but I quickly interrupted him. "You barely even know how to goddamn read!" I laughed out, fighting his strength. We both struggled for dominance as I fought back for my addiction.

We quickly ended up in the water, my lungs fighting for air, when I greeted the surface I was quickly met by his lips. But soon after, we both met trouble. ;)