KPOP Oneshots

About my feelings... (Shuhua x Yugyeom

I couldn't stop glimpsing over to him. He simply sat there, at the table right next to us. My members didn't even realize but I did. They were joking around while I sat there, feeling a bit awkward. Not in a bad way though. I just didn't get why he smiled at me like this whenever he caught my gaze. Which was admittingly often. It confused me. A polite smile was what I was used to and I did not expect anything more. But his smile was warm, gentle and maybe even a bit curious. As if he knew something I didn't. It made me crazy. What was this about?

Yuqi nudged me and I flinched, forcefully snapping out of my thoughts. "What are you waiting for?", she whispered. I looked at her confused. "Get up, we have to go on stage soon", she said, now perplexed of me not realizing it. "Oh, r-right", I stuttered and stood up too fast, resulting in me almost knocking the table over. Yuqi shook her head as she followed me towards our waiting room. At least I got myself back under control as soon as I entered the stage. Performing was what I loved, hearing the cheers and just dancing and singing it all out. As we even received an award, my happiness was at its highest. Until I saw who handed it over: Yugyeom. He smiled at me again like that. I blushed and hid behind my members shyly. I was glad I didn't have to do the acceptance speech.

I let go off a shaky breath after the award show was over, scoffing along the hallway behind my members. I hated my brain for not letting me forget about his smile. There had been something in his eyes, something I couldn't depict and that was still so darn appealing. I wanted to know what it was, wanted to ask him about it. And I couldn't shake it off the whole way towards the location for the after show party. Would he be there too?

The question got answered as soon as I got out from the car. He stood in front of the entrance, talking to some friends. I took a deep breath. You got this, Shuhua. I nodded politely as I passed them by. But I was not ready for Yugyeom shouting after me: "Hey, wait for a bit, please!" I turned around surprised. "You guys were really great on stage", he said and I blushed. "T-Thanks", I stuttered. He smiled softly and motioned me to come closer. I looked to find my members but they already dove into the party crowd. I sighed internally and went over to the others. "Hi", I greeted shyly. I saw Woong, Jaehyun, Eunwoo and Mingyu, all of them smiling at me brightly. And somehow I found myself in a group of people I barely knew but having the greatest conversations. I enjoyed myself and laughed often, not even confused by Yugyeom's growing smile anymore.

In the end, it was only the two of us, talking about a way more serious topic than what I ever could have expected. "I'm just afraid of not being able to get the feeling right, you know? Counting is no problem, but the right vibe to it is something I do struggle with this time." I sighed, thinking about the choreo for our next title track. "Hey, don't worry", Yugyeom assured me, "You'll be great. Just trust your guts. Dancing is not about what others want to see in your choreo, it's about what you feel. You can't go wrong if you trust your feelings." I shrugged, clearly not convinced. "You can easily say that. You're a great dancer with way more experience than I have", I mumbled. "That's nonsense", he shook his head firmly, "You can't say one dancer is better than another one. Every dancer is a dancer and that's it. If they know how to express themselves in the dance, that's all you can ever ask for. And I know you can do that." I waved it off, not knowing what else to say.

Suddenly he snipped his fingers. "I know something", he said and I looked at him curiously, "Let me see your choreo. Maybe I can give you advice. If you want to, that is." I couldn't help but smile and nervously I brushed my hair behind my ears. "Let's go, I'd say", I then agreed and only moments later we sat in a car headed towards CUBE's practice rooms. And just a bit later, he sat in front of me, waiting for me to start the music. I tried to control my beating heart. It's just a colleague, helping you to work on your dance, I told myself. But why did it feel like there was way more than that to it? I took a deep breath and pressed play. As I turned around, I did not dare to look at him, so I closed my eyes instead, trying to not miss a single step.

After I ended, I first heard his applause. "I couldn't have done it better", he said and I slowly opened my eyes, blushing. "Just because you don't know the choreo", I gave back. He laughed and I couldn't help but grin. Then he got up and approached me. "Let me tell you something, Shuhua", he said while I was trying to slow down my heartrate, "From the day I first saw you dance, I was deeply admiring your style. You do not only dance. You feel the music." I couldn't hold the eye contact and hurriedly tried to find something else to focus on. But he didn't let me. He gently lifted my chin so I could look into his eyes. "Dancing is about feeling it, I told you. Don't worry about the choreo, okay?" I nodded. I don't know why, but suddenly I felt like I could do it. I was convinced I could nail this choreo.

Days later, I sat next to him again, out of breath from dancing. That night after the award show, we exchanged phone numbers before I realized it and he promised to be ready giving me advice any time. I felt like I needed his support for the comeback as quite a new level of skill was needed. And Yugyeom did encourage me more than I thought he would. Often times he came by to observe the choreo, sometimes even with some food or drinks for the members and me. He listened to the song, came to support me while recording and even sent a coffee truck when we had our photo shoot. I ignored the others' knowing looks and teasing comments. He was just a colleague, wasn't he?

Today he decided I was too focused on getting the timing right and encouraged me to try dancing to another song in between, just to get back to the fun of it. I found him being right. But before that I admitted needing a break. "Ready to go again?", he now asked me and I nodded slowly. He laughed and got up, offering me a hand. After pulling me up, he went over to the laptop to start the music. I froze as I heard the song. "There is no choreo to this", I protested and he nodded. "I told you I want you to get back to the fun, not worrying about any choreo", he grinned. I sulked and he chuckled before saying: "Come on. Just dance. Dance with me if it's easier for you." I sighed, knowing there was no way out other than obeying. I closed my eyes and started to listen to the music intensely. The movement suddenly came all by itself. I opened my eyes again, only to be met with his astonished ones. He gave me a thumbs up and I threw my head back into my neck, laughing from the bottom of my heart. This was why I loved dancing.

Yugyeom joined into my dancing and took my hand at one point, making me turn. Slowly we came closer, inevitably due to the dance until my back leaned on his chest, our bodies moving in the same rhythm. I looked over my shoulder, meeting his eyes and gentle smile. And that was the moment I knew that I had been wrong. Yugyeom wasn't only a colleague helping me out anymore. And he never intended to be one. I wasn't even sure anymore if I ever really wanted him to be just that. Almost like an affirmation, his face came closer, slow and shy. He was a gentleman indeed, I thought to myself as I realized he left the choice to me. I didn't have to think though. I smirked and closed the gap between our lips, getting lost in a kiss that made me forget everything around me.