iKon: Conflicted Hearts | k.jh

Chapter 13

Song of the Chapter: Empty - WINNER

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As I promised myself, I never did made an appearance from the day he broke me and my heart. I didn't leave my room one week straight, didn't sleep and didn't eat. Okay, maybe I have a fridge and mini kitchen in my room but I was too devastated at the fact he just played with my feelings but again, the bet is all I had to blame. He keeps on calling and sending me messages but not one did I read. I'm so stupid to agree with his bet when all of this falls into the wrong places. It feels like, it was all nothing to him. And the worst thing is:

I can't move on.

It was so hard to accept reality when I'm stuck in fantasy, continuing to dream that the person I like will like me back but I was wrong yet again. I was in between the real world and the fake one, I was too confused with my thoughts running a mile per minute in my head. Thoughts of him. I'm a messed up right now and I need to shower, yes. I need to show them that I'm strong and I did, I took a shower. (A/N: I find this funny omg sorry)

"Darling, can you please come out for a minute?" My total weakness is my mom and I can't say no to her. I sighed, looking at Jinhwan's hoodie and blazer neatly folded in my bed and shook my head before slapping my cheeks. I put on a hoodie and slowly walked out of the room, walking downstairs with head down low. I don't want to see his face or the other members', I want to be alone.

"Never do this again." Hanbin pulled me into a hug but I remained motionless as I stared at the wall behind him.

"Mianhae, time's up." I bowed, my voice inaudible as I walk upstairs, ignoring everyone's remark the moment I closed and locked my door, sighing as I looked at myself in the mirror. I look horrible, I feel horrible. I'm tired with all the bullshit that I'm dealing. I pulled out a box under my bed and placed the clothes that belong to Jinhwan and pushed it back under.

"Aish. I wanna go out." I murmured, pulling on my hair as I entered my blankets and sighed as I scrolled on my phone, changing my wallpaper into me and Hanbin's selca and placed it back to my nightstand, not even bothering to look at the door that was noisy. Omg, its freaking me out. Is my door haunted? Eek. Someone help me, gosh. "Dongsaeng." Gosh, its just Hanbin, chill.

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"Darling, I just want to inform you again about your cousin's wedding the day after tomorrow." Eomma called out from outside and I sighed, replying to my mom and hit Hanbin with a pillow who was sleeping peacefully.

I know, I love to destroy his peace as much as he destroys mine too. "What?" He whines, cuddling with the pillow that I used to smack him and I face palmed. What a brother.

"I'm going out oppa, I'll just return something to a friend." I almost cringed at the word 'friend' and I hear Hanbin humming as a yes. I immediately went to the bathroom to change into my favorite high waisted shorts and a shirt followed by my long black jacket. I slip in my sneakers and walked out, pulling out the box under the bed and wrote a note saying:

'Thanks for letting me borrow jerk :) -HJ'

"I hope he's not in his apartment." I mumbled lowly as I let out a sigh and walked out of the room, jogging down the stairs and ran out of the house, riding on my bicycle as I placed the box on the small cart in front of the bike.

I strolled around the neighborhood for a while with a smile as the wind hit me and my smile turned into a frown as I reached his apartment, I gulped as I step out of my bike and carried the box as I slowly approached the front door. I didn't bother to enter his code that I memorized but placed the box on his doorstep, smiling painfully as I stood up and turned around while I pushed back my tears that spilled without permission.

"Hanjae!"

"Hanjae please, listen to me." Did he saw me?

I really should be more careful next time. Pfft, like there's a next time that I'll come by. I stiffened as he hug me from behind and I could feel him tighten his arms around me, not letting me go. Damn him and his ego, damn him and his sweetness that turned into bitterness when he spilled the truth. I don't want to hear his lies anymore, I'm sick and tired hearing it.

I slowly wrapped my hands around his arms as he softened and I pulled it away from my waist as I turn around with a small smile.

"The deal's off. I think its enough, I paid for what I owe you. Annyeong."

I bowed at him and went towards my bike, riding it slowly as I still hear his yells of my name but I chose not to listen to him. I'll be hurting myself more if I do, I don't need his explanation anymore, I totally understood what he said. But like others said, love truly hurts and thats what happening to me now. I fell in love with him and I was hurt because I expect too much. It hurts, it really fucking hurts.

I'm such a stupid loser for falling for him.

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A/N: Annyeong haseyoooo~ aigoo, did I made you wait long again my dear lovely readers/chingus? Mian. How's the chapter going so far? Do you like it or nah? Please vote and comment or inbox me whenever you feel bored or you wanna talk about the story, line up your suggestions so I can add it up on my chapters. It would be good. FIGHTING!

—queen👑