High school sucks

Just got comfortable 

Josh's Pov

He grabbed me pulling me on his lap as he shoved his head in my chest

Mully-Please just shut up..

Josh-Sorry..

Mully-I just want you...

Josh-And you have me

Mully-No I don't if I did I wouldn't have to be in my cabin hiding from Nova because your to scared to break up with her

Josh-Hey do not start I don't want to break up with her because I don't want to hurt her

Josh-Your the one who said not to hurt her

Mully-Changed my mind I want you to not date that bratty slut

Josh-Be nice you act like your any better

Mully-Fucks that supposed to mean?

He picked his head up looking at me as I looked down at his body covered in scars I placed my hand on his chest as I looked back up to him

Josh-You act like everything is ok like your not broken but you are I can tell

Mully-I'm not fucking broken

Josh-Yes you are and I'm not trying to start an argument or judge you but you act like you have it made and when you get hurt you just hide it like nothing happened

Mully-Best way to do it..

Josh-But it's not- Lover come on you can't keep doing this

Mully-You don't get it josh.. My Mom was an addict my Dad a Alcoholic druggy I was raised in a horrible household shit i basically raised Nova until my dad took me

Josh-I know.. I don't get it-

Mully-Exactly you don't you had it made your Dad is a fucking police that hates me but doesn't say anything because he's scared and your mom loves you

Josh-Just because you think I had such a good life of my dad yelling at me for liking guys and having gay friends and my mom not caring same with my sister and falling in love with a mass murderer-

I stopped at what I had just said

Josh-I'm sorry I didn't mean to bring that u-

Mully-It's fine.

He pushed me off him getting up he picked his cigarette up lighting it and walking off as i sat in bed a tear rolled down my cheek I wiped it off as I just blankly stared at the floor

My fist balled up as I hit my thigh with it I rested my elbows on my lap as held my head up with my hands my grip tightened pieces of my hair being pulled together

I started to sob as I struck my hand against my head Stupid.. Stupid! Why did you have to bring that up! What if he hates me now? What if he leaves me again.. what if I hurt him..?

I felt his hand around my wrist as he slowly sat by me still holding my wrist he laid our hands down on my lap

Mully-Don't hit yourself..

Josh-I'm S-Sorry I didn't mean to bring that u-up i-it just came out b-because I was angry

I struggled to speak my throat hurting as I continue to cry he leaned me back on his chest as he laid his back against the backboard

He just held me not saying anything else just holding me and resting his head on my mine until he broke the silence

Mully-Don't ever hit yourself..

Josh-Don't tell me what to do..

He sighed as he pulled my head back till we were staring in each others eyes he carefully wiped my tears