Remind Me Of The Bad Times

Chapter 5: Here Comes Delivery Day

Winter break was... interesting. I mostly spent time with my boyfriend, Jack, and his siblings but I didn't spend any time with Lexi like she asked. I didn't spend any time with Rupert either though... because I never saw him. I don't know where he went, nobody knows either. Maybe he's just comforting Lexi, I didn't think that much of it. I mean, I may of spent every winter break with Lexi, I didn't spend every winter break with Rupert. I couldn't wait to see Lexi after school though, because then we can finally talk to each other without the mood being destroyed.

Well, I did see Rupert once. He was basically carrying Lexi, I don't know where though. I saw a few hours later that her dad and mom going to a hospital. I started to put the puzzle together... was Lexi giving birth? It could just not be related, but I can't visit to know though, I promised not to bother plus I probably wouldn't even be allowed in. The rest of the days were nice but not very memorable you know? Just your usual things like 

I was so excited that I couldn't even study on the last day. I got up right away, rushing to school, I was so fast that I almost didn't finish my usual 7 pancakes. I was so happy to see Lexi, hoping to see her. I was so cheery to meet her. It took a while due to how our classes work, but we did meet at lunch. Lexi seemed very upset and sat further away from us. Rupert was right by Lexi and comforted her, while she was, I am pretty sure, crying. I made the oblivious decision of asking what was wrong to Lexi. She... she lost the baby. Lexi bursted out crying loudly on Rupert... I feel so bad.

But everything will be fine, I'm sure of it! We just hit on the ground... really hard... for no reason. We will get up though. After all, life may be a mess but there's always patches of good! But for some reason... I don't feel like I believe in it that much anymore. Maybe it's because Lexi didn't get a patch of good recently, but did she ever get one? I... don't think so. But we got to stay positive here, I'm sure there will be something good!

Lexi said that she wants to be alone for now, which I understood. I don't think Rupert understood as well though, since he kept trying to talk to Lexi, but I'm sure he'll get it. I didn't see Lexi for days expect in that one class, and she looked really depressed. I didn't want to make her uncomfortable though, so I just left her alone. Sometimes I think I shouldn't, but she told me so I want to respect her wishes.