Just Why Not? [Mew/Gulf]

Chapter 16

Mew POV 

How am I so close to Gulf, but still so far away from him? I look at the card in my hand. I've attempted to dial his number and press the call button 20 times already, but I don't know why I keep hesitating. What have I become? What has Gulf done to me? I don't believe in relationships, but Gulf makes me wanna think about it.

I'm going crazy, I can't confirm but this feels like love. I smile, but it fades quickly as it appears. He was so cool when he saw me, no anger, no hatred, he wasn't even that surprised. He was just genuinely happy to see me.

Like I'm his long-lost friend, who is nothing else but just a friend. He definitely doesn't feel the same way I feel about myself. The reason I came here is to figure out what Gulf means to me. But I guess this process is going to be a little painful as I can already expect disappointment.

That's it, I'm done hesitating, I quickly dial the number and call Gulf without thinking again. One ring. Two rings. Three rings.

"Hello"

"He... Ahem .. hello?"

"Who's this?"

"G... Gulf, it's Mew ..."

"Oh hi Mew, what's up?"

"Nothing, I just wanted to check if u are free, so that we can hang out or something"

"Hmm yeah, sure... I just logged out from work, and I think my head will blow any minute now"

"What happened? Are you okay?"

"I was actually thinking of going out for a drink tonight, I just have to calm myself down first, if u want u can meet me at the bar, I'll catch you up with the information if you come"

"Ye... Yesss sure I will be there"

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I went to the bar where Gulf said he would be, I never thought Gulf would be a person who would grab a drink when he is stressed, I thought maybe he is a person who will work more or get some sleep. But how wrong was I? This new Gulf revolves around drinks and sex. I'm not judging him, but I'm happy he is having a good time ... At the same time it still stings to know that he is happy with other people and I am sad because of him.

I look around and then I find Gulf on the counter. "Hi Gulf "

"Hey Mew "

I look at his face, he is the definition of beauty, he smiles at me and that makes my heart skip a beat.

"Come on sit, what would you like to drink," he asked

"Umm I will just take a whiskey neat"

"You heard him, Bianca," he said to the pretty blonde bartender"

"Do you know her?"

"Yup," he said giving a flirtish look toward her

"How?"

"We spent a night together a few days ago"

Pain, physical pain in my chest, is he here to get some from Bianca again, did he just call me here to have a talk meanwhile he flirts with her "oh..." that's all I could say

"Hey Mew, are you okay?"

" Yep I'm good why do you ask"

"No, it's just that you seem a little flustered"

"Nothing of the sort Gulf I'm fine, it's just that I did not know you.... that you..."

"Can I have fun?"

"No no that's not what I mean"

"Haha calm down Mew, I know what you are thinking, I know I have changed more than you have expected, but this is good right, I am doing good at work and also having a good time with people it's a perfect balance," he said and the next second his expression changed and he looked down.

"Gulf, are you okay?" I asked, I also took the opportunity to touch his back comfortingly

He snapped from his daze and looked at me "Yeah, I mean it's just that I think I might not be able to have fun like this from now on"

He is sad, but I don't know why I have the evil urge to seize this opportunity to take advantage of this situation "do you wanna tell me what's going on?"

"Well that's why I called you"

My drink came and he briefed me all about how his boss is going on a long leave and all about how his position is going to change.

"Gulf, what are you talking about, it's a good thing that you are getting promoted right?"

"Well yeah, but Mew if I wanted to get promoted I would have done that years ago... Well, I had my plans ...I had a few things on my list."

"And that is ?? "

1)Make more friends and socialize

2) Take more vacations

And 3) quit my job in 5 years"

"Woah that last one caught me off guard, I thought you would never want to leave your job"

"I thought the same as well, but after I got the taste of the other side, I just wanted to leave the job and stay happily in my apartment, I thought I might give a room to someone for rent and live a peaceful life"

"Wait... Are you gonna have a roommate?" I asked ... I don't know why I want to take as much advantage of this situation.

"Not yet, my Mom and Dad are planning to buy a place in the countryside and move out, they feel that I have grown up enough to take care of myself, so they might move in a couple of weeks and then I will start looking for tenants"

Okay, that is too much information load for me in one day, I need to know everything that's going on in his life, but I know that I can't handle it if it is told to me all at once... So I decided to go one by one "Okay let's get back to the list" I said, "About friends and socializing, how is that going?"

"Well, that's cool actually, I started talking, smiling, laughing, sometimes sex too, well a lot of sex actually," he said, he was telling it like he was talking to some buddy of his. Can't he understand that it is hurting my feelings?

"Okay, what about vacation??" I asked placing all my pain on one side

"Mew that's exactly why I called you here before I take up the position of acting manager role... I want a vacation ... How long are you staying here?"