"I'm leaving the 118" he seemed like he didn't care. The words shot through Bucks heart.
"W-what why?" That's all he could say. "Chris is scared I'm putting myself in danger and I might not live to see next year. Christopher is my world so, I'm leaving."
Buck just walked away. He was angry, sad and confused. The team always feels off without Eddie. He lost control of his breathing and started shaking. No one came to see if he was okay and he was glad because he needed to be alone. He stood against the wall and started taking deep breaths.
Buck thought that Eddie would come back sooner or later. Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. Eddie didn't contact Buck once. And he was starting to lose hope.
The station was dull and quiet lately. Buck hadn't spoken much the past few months. There wasn't anything to talk about.
He just stared into nothingness.
"Buck? You okay?" Hen asked.
"Hm"
"Look I know you miss Eddie, but maybe you need to reach out to him first."
"I tried. He ghosted me."
"Oh"
Buck walked away and into the locker room. Silent tears fell but he wiped them away before anyone could see. He cleared his throat and went back out again.
[with Eddie]
I sit in my office getting lectured by Josh about the fact that I should never hijack one of his calls again.I was holding back tears and putting on a smile and nodding. Once Josh left I sat down at my desk and let some tears fall before I sniffed and sucked it up. I decided I was going to visit the station now or never.
•arriving at station•
I saw Buck carrying the hoses causing a lump to form in my throat. I stepped into the station and he spotted me. He turned his back on me and walked away.
"Buck."
He shook his head and continued walking.
[third person]
Bucks breath began to quicken again until he struggled to take in air. He found his way outside. He looked for a wall to lean against but all he saw was Eddie still behind him begging him to talk.
"Buck please!"
"No. No just go." He puffed.
"No Buck listen-"
Buck caught up with himself and all he could feel was anger.
"No! You listen. I get that you needed some time. I gave you 5 months! 5 fucking months to talk! You shut the world out- shut me out! And I never got a response. You know how much I missed Chris and- and you! I was actually starting to think you felt the same way about me or was I imagining that? But whatever we had- you. You ruined it Eddie. Last time I spoke to Chris he was just scared that you were throwing yourself into danger too much. He didn't want you to quit Eddie!" He yelled. Tears were pouring down his cheeks and Eddie was gobsmacked. "He just wanted to know you were going to be okay! Some reassurance that you were safe!" He cried more.
"I-I'm sorry Buck."
"I just wanted to talk to you!"
"I know Buck and I've never forgiven myself for leaving you. I do feel the same way Buck. The day you met Chris and we're amazing with him. I knew. I knew I found the one. So please tell me we can fix this!"
"I forgive you Eddie"
He ran over and connected their lips. Buck grabbed onto Eddie's neck and hugged him. "I missed you so much" Buck blurted.
"I missed you too"
"Can you come back please?"
"Of course. I'll talk to cap now."
Eddie spoke to Bobby and he happily gave him his space back. He was back to work after a day and the station was back to normal again and Buck started talking more.
