Not even death could bring them apart | A sequel to Emil x Dina

Chapter 3 - Failure

(Dina's pov)
 I just got home. I feel numb, emotionless (emo). It felt as if somebody had torn my heart out of my chest. I found a skipping rope under my bed and I hung it up in my lamp. I took out my phone and opened TikTok, and started going live. 0 viewers. I took the other end of the skipping rope and tied it around my neck. 

 1 viewer. 

 I tightened it, and I focused my eyes on the viewcount on the phone. 

 2 viewers. 

 My feet are about to leave the floor, and butterflies began overtaking my stomach. Finally, I'm gonna be able to be together with Emil again... Finally I'll be able to be happy again, then I will never have to feel like this again. It feels like I'm in hell, but I know that once I'm dead, I'll be in heaven. I smile when the rope begins choking me, and I look down at the phone filming me. 

 Still 2 viewers.

 'I can't breath,' I thought. The lamp, which I tied the rope in, broke, and I fell down on the floor. The lamp landed on my head. The rope was still tied around my neck, but it wasn't tight anymore and I was able to breath. 

 3 viewers. 

 I originally went live so people would recognise me before my death, but I guess that kind of backfired on me. I hope nobody who actually knows me are watching... I don't want them to know I failed life. 

I failed the most simple thing on earth. 

 Even though I'm just laying on the ground, I'm still live. I wonder if the people watching thinks I'm dead now. I'm not saying anything, not a single sound. I'm not moving at all. I lay here for some hours, I can hear my parents coming home from work. I'm still laying on the floor... I'm just gonna lay here untill they find me. I look to the left, and I see the destroyed lamp. There's glass from the light bulb everywhere.