rizz me up | jaden walton

chapter 3

rizz me up

"gianna i'm going to be totally and absolutely honest with you, i have no idea what you're talking about. what do you mean i'm a slut and a whore? just because we haven't hung out all summer doesn't mean i turned to a slut or whore"! i said, emphasizing myself and my fingers every time i mentioned the words slut and whore.

"but you are. you know exactly what you did. stop playing dumb. ava doesn't lie." gianna said, crossing her arms.

"ava? as in ava espinoza?"

"what other ava is there?" gianna says rolling her eyes.

"there's ava nanzella, and ava kwon. but you're probably talking about ava espinoza, the one that talks the most shit." i said, half smiling.

"she doesn't talk shit, aurelia. she's changed. she isn't the pathological liar she used to be, and you need to understand people change. you did and so did ava. and if you're really "confused" about what i'm talking about, she'll tell you ALL about it." gianna said, then she proceeds to walk away, without holding any eye contact.

fine. i guess ava wants to play that game. ava espinoza is the biggest shit talker on this planet. of course her and jaden used to date. i even caught them flirting in the hallway, after she cheated on him, real dumbasses. i guess i'm gonna ask ava what shit and rumors she said about me now.

"hey biggest shit talker! what rumors did you tell everyone? tell me now." i said, looking her in the eye. i'm not a tough person, but i really just want to scare her. that didn't work obviously.

ava pulls my body away from hers, rolling her eyes. "i didn't tell anyone anything." she said.

"what? then how come everyone especially my best friends are ignoring me?"

ava opens her mouth, then closet it. there's at least 15 seconds of silence and tension.

she speaks up, "i told everyone you're a slut and a whore. and i told everyone you were talking shit about them. as i should".

"fucking liar, i'm a virgin and i NEVER talk shit about people. i talk the truth about shitty people. that's probably why i've mentioned your name a couple times."

"stop flirting with jaden. you're obviously asking to have sex in the janitors closet with that outfit on and that face. and plus, you're really annoying me. you fucking fake ass plastic barbie. 50 pounds of makeup just to look like a fucking blobfish." ava says, catching up to all her words.

"are you mad that i put time and dedication to myself over the summer? plus, i wasn't flirting with jaden. i didn't even talk to him at all in like 5 months."

"yeah sure. he just told the whole lunch table that you fucking flirted with him in first period, and plus all the guys are calling you slut and whore. jaden doesn't even like you, so keep dreaming. he started going off on how ugly and fake you look, and especially how you're still fat-ass over all these years and you still can't fix your weight."

my jaw dropped. that all eye contact, was for nothing. i really felt bad about myself again. maybe i just an a high self esteem about myself today. i probably still look the same. ava and jaden's words really hurt me. i'm obviously not going to tell her that, though. i'm gonna act like a bad bitch through the pain.

"plus, jaden said that you probably talked shit about everyone to your friends. but now that i've been observing you, you don't really seem to have any." ava tilts her head.

"shut the fuck up ava. so jaden said all of this to you, his friend group and lunch table? and you just told everyone in the school?" i ask, kinda hopeful. when ava makes up rumors, EVERYONE believes her. she even fakes the proof. but if she didn't make the rumors, i still have a chance to get my reputation back.

i push through ava and walk up to jaden. "jaden, can i talk to you?"

he stood his conversation and looks at me up and down. the whole lunch table freezes and starts saying "oooh", "be careful if she pulls you in the janitors closet, you guys are gonna have some fun", and other shit like that.

he gets up and says "fuck you want" bluntly.

i'm extremely disappointed in myself for finding that hot. after all of what he's done to me, i'm still falling for him.

"why would you say all those stuff about me? ava told me everything." i honestly kinda felt like crying. i was super embarrassed.

"can we go out in the hall?" i ask looking down.

he pushes me but with his body, making physical touch, and goes in the hall.

"wasn't just me." he says, looking me in the eye, his head slowly tilted.

"honestly, fuck you. i hate you for everything you've done. you're such an enormous dick. i hate you so much. i don't care if it was multiple people, you probably started it and said the most, and now it went over to the whole school. i don't care if you're making fun of my looks and shit, but just don't tell everyone especially my friends. but of course you already did. now i have nobody." i say.

i already know that i'm crying, and i don't care. but i also do feel embarrassed. my biggest enemy/crush is seeing me cry, and i'm an ugly crier.

jaden puts his finger on my chin and lifts up my face. he goes super close to me and i can feel his breath on my lips. the butterflies are incredible.

"fuck you too."

i'm waiting for him to say something else, but it's just silent tension between us. our faces are centimeters away.

"you're a dick." i say, and i can feel the tears on my cheeks.

he wipes my tears off with his finger, and goes even closer.

i'm starting to get really nervous. what is he gonna do.

he then leans in to kiss me..