The man in the moon

2.

Waiting was harder than I thought. I kept an twitter countdown sa pag alis namin ng Australia, we haven't purchased the ticket and may mga kailangan pa rin kaming bayaran. Every day was like waiting on something which made my life interesting, lalo na wala akong masyadong ginagawa atleast sa pag hihintay nagiging busy ako. Although may kasamang worries, I've been through serious mood changes because of our situation. The feeling of un-certainity, the anxiety of having to start a new life, in a new place. Having to introduce yourself to other people all over again. Minsan naiinip na ako, minsan naman ayoko ng umalis. "Hay nako! ayoko ng mag-isip" I told Nicole who was laying down beside me. She rolled over to face me "22 days nalang bub, aalis ka na" Nicole said. "I know, I'm excited and not. basta di ko alam nararamdam ko haha" I laughed it off but deep inside I was really worried. Feeling ko wala pang ginagawa sila mommy sa ticket namin, feeling ko hinahabol ko yung oras. Oh well, sanay naman na ako maghabol chs "ano nanaman iniisip mo ah?" Nicole said sitting down. "Wala..." "spill it girl, wag ako, alam ko madaming tumatakbo dyan sa isip mo. Minsan nga nag tataka ako kung may utak ka pa eh" "haha baliw!" tawa ko. Yes, I like to think. sometimes I would just sit in one place, plug in my headphones and just think. Think about the future, the past, memories that makes me happy, I'm so used to thinking that sometimes I just sleep to avoid it. Yun ang isa sa mga rason kung bakit ayaw ko ng nawawalan ng ginagawa, I find myself drowning in my own thoughts. 

"Malay mo makita mo na dun ang forever mo" Sambit ni Nicole. "Forever my face, walang forever" Sagot ko naman. Nicole got up and fixed her self "ewan ko sayo, pero I have to go home bub." "Okayy, message me when You're home ah?" "Yep yep, bye!" We both went down and I sent Nicole off. I waved my hand when I saw her dad in our garage waiting for her, I sigh and closed the door behind me and headed back to my room. My parents with my brother went to a meeting which I couldn't come dahil need kong tapusin yung report ko bago umuwi. I sat by the window near my desk and once again, dahil wala na si Nicole, wala na din akong kausap mag eemote nanaman ako. I rolled my eyes to the routine my body has, as I was lost in thought I saw the bracelet Dr. Jeon and his wife gave me the other day. I smiled as I remember that Dr. Jeon said it was one of a kind "Hmm, one of a kind katulad nung nag bigay one of a kind din" I changed position and layed on my bed. Oo, yes ang dahilan kung bakit ako lumipat sa kama ko dahil sumasakit na ang likod ko. Diba? ang daming entry netong katawan ko, ayaw ata akong mabuhay ng tahimik. I just closed my eyes while listening to music,  once again I found myself swimming in thoughts. It was just an ordinary day of me being alone but what I did not expect was I driftted to sleep.  

Nagising ako sa pag galaw ng kama ko, since malambot yung mattress ko ramdam ko ang bawat kilos ng nasa paligid ko. I suddenly felt a movement, yung movement ng pag may katabi ka tapos nag palit ng position sa pagtulog, my eyes suddenly opened wide. Dahil I was facing my bedside table, hindi ko agad kita yung nasa likod ko. "Impossible naman may multo dito diba?" I said comforting myself. Dahan dahan akong lumingon at sa aking kinakatakot, I saw someone laying next to me. Sa sobrang takot ko, I screamed on top of my lugs and fell on my bed. 

"MIKA!" "ATE?!" "ANAK??" I heard as my family was screaming. "Anong nangyare sayo??" I looked around and realize na panaginip lang yun. "ah, wala yun mommy, daddy. grabe kasi yung panaginip ko sobrang realistic! akala ko totoo." I said and nung tinignan ko yung mga mukha nila mas lalo akong naguluhan. "oh bat para kayong nakakita ng multo dyan??" 

"WEH?? TOTOO?? NANAGINIP KA??" Nicole shouted. We were sitting on the park near her house "Oo nga! ano paulit ulit?" I said. Ever since I had trouble with sleeping and other complications na meron ako sa buhay hindi ako nakakapanaginip, kasi nga nahihirapan ako makatulog. Kaya sobrang gulat at tuwa nila mommy nung nalaman nila na nanaginip ako. "So ano yung panaginip mo??" tanong ni Nicole. "Ewan ko ba, sobrang real yung pakiramdam." "Ano nga!" "may katabi daw ako." "Girl, yung lang??" "sino yung katabi mo? babae o lalaki??" "Teka! isa isa lang. mahina kalaban" "ewan ko nga! dahil nung pag ikot ko daw nagulat ako tas nahulog sa kama, tas yun nagising na ako." I said while looking at the clouds. "tanga! kahit sa panaginip tanga ka pa din?? di mo man nakita? malay mo yun na yung icing sa ibabaw ng cupcake mo!" "Ikaw! alam mo sarap mong iwanan, Nicole." I said "wait, feeling mo babae o lalaki??" "ewan ko nga! NAPAKAKULIT MO DEN NOH??" "pero parang lalaki sya" I said while I scratched my neck. "Oh my Gosh! yun na yun beh! sign na, pag uwi mo mag kaka-love life ka na! swear" 

"Hay nako, ewan ko sayo." I rolled my eyes and got up the swing. 

"Hoy! san ka pupunta?" Nicole said while running after me. "I have to get ready" "Get ready for what??" "mommy called Dr. Jeon yesterday, so he wanted to come and see me" I turn my back because of Nicole having no response and saw her smirking at me. "Baliw! gwapo si Dr. Jeon pero may ate seoyun na yun." "Oh wag ka ng malungkot" pang iinis sakin ni Nicole. 

Dr Jeon, he is one of the few yet important people in my life. he was there when all the psychiatrist rejected me, because they thought I was just a normal teenage who is going through puberty and break up. However, Dr. Jeon didn't see me as that, he treated me like how he treats patients with severe illness. Until the day we found out I actually have a severe chronic insomnia. Insomnia is a illness that is caused of trouble of sleeping or sometimes too much sleeping, due to stress, mental illness or past traumas. Dr. Jeon, was a family friend of ours. One of the known psychiatrist here in Australia, that's why my parents are so grateful that he agreed to look after me. I got ready thrown in some white hoodie then jean with some sneakers lang, His office wasn't that far from where we live so it was just a quick travel. I arrived at the hospital and was greeted by the staff's "Oh! Mika, akala ko last visit mo yung last week?" the hospital receptionist asked me. "Hehe, akala ko din po eh. Andito na po ba si Dr. Jeon?" "Ahh oo! upo ka nalang muna dyan, may patient pa sa loob." ate Dani said. "ah, sige po." I was going through my phone dahil wala namang masyadong tao ngayong araw, dahil weekday tapos tanghaling tapat pa. I was sitting beside the water dispenser and dahil bored ako, tumayo nalang ako to get water. But I heard Dr. Jeon calling my name already "Mika, pasok ka na." "Shucks" sabi ko sa sarili ko. napaka advance namn kasi nung dispenser na to, I cannot just leave the cup kasi it will overflow. "Mika?" tawag ulit sakin "Coming po!" sigaw ko namn at nung matapos na yung tubig I hurriedly got my bag from the chair and fixed myself through the corridors and dahan dahan akong tumakbo dahil hawak ko yung cup na puno  ng tubig. "Move!" narinig ko and I just felt water pour over me, I look up and saw a boy running out of this place. "Bastos na lalaki yun ah! di man lang mag sosorry??" I was about to go after him when I felt a hand hold my arm. "Miks, pag pasensyahan mo na yun ah" I turn my head and my expression immediately changed "Ate Yun!" it was ate Seoyun, Dr. Jeon's wife. "That boy was my brother, I'm sorry on his behalf. Kook is waiting for you, pasok ka na" she calmingly said. "o-ok po, bye ate!" she smiled then waved goodbye to me. May kapatid pala si ate Yun, I entered Dr. Jeon's office looking like a cat who just got out of the shower. "my God, what happened sayo Mika? umuulan ba sa labas?" Dr.Jeon quickly stood up and gave me his coat. "Here, dry up first. wala na man ring ibang patiens scheduled for today." He said while leading me towards his washroom. After Getting dried up, I sat down and got ready for the check up. 

"So, now that you're dry na" he chuckled. Cute, "what happened to you?" "Ah, I was on my way here and a boy was running and he bumped into me." I said explaining "Oh that boy, pag pasensyahan mo na sya, he's, he's been..." I waited for him to answer but he changed the topic instead, "anyways he's someone who is going through something like you. enough about him, tita called me and said that you dreamt." "talk about progress, miks!" He said patting my head. "Thank you po, it was also surprising to me." "So what made you fall asleep?" 

"I don't know.." "I was just doing my casual routine, umuwi na si Nicole that time so I just decided to sit by the window and listen to music then sumakit na yung likod ko so I decided to lay down my bed..." "then suddenly I had a dream" I told him. "What was the dream?"

"I was laying down and there was someone with me in the bed" "that's it, I didn't get to see who it was but I was sure it was a person." I continued "Well that's one interesting dream, at least we can see progress sayo. You can call me anytime lalo na at hindi ka pa naman umaalis" "let's use this opportunity to monitor you, okay?" He said. "Yes po" I stood up, ready to leave 

"Oo nga pala, mika. Try doing that one or two more times.."

"I think relaxing helps you get better." 

"and talking about relaxing, you remember that boy?"

"the one who bumped into me?" 

"haha yes" he chuckles.

"He's Seoyun's brother, he's 2 years older than you pero same kayo ng sakit. I planned on bringing him somewhere and I think it would be great if you come along." 

"uh, I-I'll ask my parents po" 

"okay, consider that ah!" 

"yes po, thank you Dr. Jeon."