The change (zalfie fanfic)

The search

I hadn't yet started my own channel with videos. I knew I wanted to.
To do YouTube was my dream.
At the moment I just stuck to blogging.
But I wanted more.
More reason to my life.
I wanted to get more confident.
I logged onto to Amazon and immediately started to shop for cameras and lenses and lighting and a new laptop and so much more.
If I wanted to do this.
I had to do it right.
It all came to a lot but with the job I have now, working in topshop, should pay it of. I've got nothing better to spend it on.
I ordered next day Delivery so tomorrow was the day to do this.
I planed Long lists of video ideas like,
A what's in my bag video,
Empties video,
Makeup routine,
Morning routine,
Day in my life,
Ideas like that.
I started to watch some of Tanya Burrs videos and sprinkleofglitter to get some ideas on outfits to wear.
They all wore amazing posh stuff.
I got in My car and drove to the closest shopping centre.
I went to almost every shop. Even topshop where I work, I did have vouchers and discounts.
I then packed every bag cramming them into my small mini.
I may have spent a little to much money today.
But still with everything that's happened the past couple of days I cannot get Alfie out of my mind.
Not even for a split second.
If only he ones who I was.