The change (zalfie fanfic)

1 month later

Alfie isn't mine anymore. He's moved on. He remembered everything.
He knows I was his girlfriend. And that I cheated on him. That word hurts me more than loosing him but why did I do it. I still don't know why. Alfie hadn't done a thing to me.
Anyway
Alfie has moved out and took most things he moved into a big house and I am stuck in this small flat struggling to pay rent and To eat.
Recently I was walking through down and got called fat and slut and slag everything under the sun. I knew then that everyone had found out what happened. Not even my own family members like me anymore. Im alone in this big scary world. It's a good job I can't afford food because I don't eat anymore. I cut and i have tried to kill myself a number of times but nah nothing has worked. No pills and alcohol, no drowning myself NOTHING! I'm awfully depressed and I'm finding a way to kill myself I just don't know how. I mean come on. You wouldn't kill yourself after all this? If you couldn't you must be so strong and brave. I'm the opposite.
Alfie hasn't talked to me since that day he got up and left me in the hospital crying. Crying myself to almost death. I would of died but the nurse and doctors calmed me. Well A bit.
~~~~5 hours later.
I have thought of a way.
This may sound horrible but, I'm going to go to the bridge over the train station. And jump.
I'm sorry. I have just got to. I haven't stopped crying and I literally have been passing out constantly and I can't deal with this the whole worlds weight is on my shoulders and I'm slowly drowning and drowning and drownnnn...