Birds of a Feather

Chapter 27

The group manages to make it backstage and get the doors closed before the shouting starts. Cas just stares at a wall. All the members of the BTS pack are surrounding her, visibly upset about what's happening, but her ears just keep ringing. She stares at the wall, looking at the cream color. Has it always been that color? Did they paint over something else when they bought the building? Why cream? Was it supposed to be a happy color?

She looks down at her hands just feeling numb. Wasn't a major life change supposed to feel like... well... anything. Is this what relief feels like? Is she supposed to understand what her brain is feeling? Her inner omega isn't even there to offer up any emotion. She's just left with her own thoughts, but it's hauntingly quiet for the first time in god knows how long. She should be doing something. Her to do list is always 100+ items long. How could she be spending time here when there's so much to do?

She looks back at the wall, taking a deep breath as her shoulders come down from her ears. "I don't have time for this." She mutters to no one in particular.

"You don't have time for this?!" Jin is saying back in disbelief, "You don't have time for this?! Is that really what you just said?"

Cas turns around her eyes not even recognizing BTS as she searches out the Big Bang pack. They're standing against a wall. Jiho is holding them there. Her face stern as she continues to mutter something under her breath, but all 4 men look murderous.

Cas looks at Jin, saying with no emotion in her tone, "What would you like me to say right now?"

Jin just stares at her. "How about you explain what the hell that was out there?" Jimin hisses at her.

"Or how about you explain the fact that you're accepting courting offers now?" Tae adds.

"Why didn't you ever tell us about what happened in the US?" Yoongi asks, staring at Cas with a look of horror.

"Why didn't you tell us you planned on coming to the award show last night?" Hobi says, looking angry.

"Why aren't you talking to us, Cas?" Jungkook pleads.

"Why aren't you home? I thought we were a pack. I thought you would at least care a little." Namjoon says, looking frustrated.

Cas just stares at them, mouth falling open. Her pack. This was the pack she'd given everything she could to. Her mind flashes to the conversation she had with Seunghyun earlier, and hysterical giggles make their way out of her mouth. Not a single question about how she's doing. Just accusations, the unsaid "Why are you doing this to us?" clearly coming through.

She shakes her head, staring up at the ceiling as she smiles sadly while trying to hold back the tears coming to the corners of her eyes. Huffing a laugh, "You really don't get it, do you?"

"No Cas. We don't understand. I especially don't understand how you could think any part of this could be funny. I can't believe you would treat this so cavalierly." Namjoon says, arms crossed.

"Fuck you Joon." She whispers under her breath.

"Excuse me?" He looks at her stunned, as does the rest of the room.

Cas clenches her fists, leveling a stare full of contempt at the beta, "I said. Fuck you Joon. Fuck you and this entire supposed pack."

She laughs at their shocked faces, "Fuck!" She yells at the ceiling, "Jesus christ is it liberating to finally say that to your face. I've been wanting to for months now."

"You've... but..."

She levels the entire group with a glare, "I am not done talking. You are going to shut your damn mouth for once and let me talk. I do not need your overinflated ego-based opinions right now."